Entries for May, 2006
In high school, we used to read literary publications of universities. Primarily from Western Mindanao State University and Ateneo de Zamboanga University. Sometimes, I would read articles from the PeyUPs site.
WMSU has 'Tejido' meaning woven or weave.
ADZU has 'Marejada' meaning waves.
Thus, my title.
I enjoyed reading the short stories and the poems. I'm actually excited with my first copy of 'Marejada' which I just got.
Expectations and dissapointments, I won't talk about just yet. Tell you 'bout it after I finished. Ta!
{ music } Wherever You Will Go
{ book } Marejada
{ show } oblivion
{ mood } contemplative
I read this passage somewhere...
"Loving someone is giving that someone the power to hurt you."
To my beloved friends,
I know you are both hurt from what happened. I hope you will find it in your heart to talk to each other to straighten things out. Understanding comes from listening. I know you love each other still and that is a start. Learn from each other's mistakes. You're both young and I know this is just one of those tests. Many will still come if you give each other another chance. I hope you'll stand stronger than before and face those tests hand in hand together.
A friend,
Lizette
PS: The date. How ironic!
{ music } my heartbeat
{ book } Marejada
{ show } oblivion
{ mood } disappointed
Rizal '05, Ai-Love-Amor | say what?
Paul Nicholls is Ian. Just watched it all over again. It still made me cry.
{ music } RHCP
{ book } Impolite Society
{ show } Yakitate! Japan
{ mood } indescribable
Ain't he the cutest?! I wish he was mine.
Got the pic from www.cuteoverload.com.
Thanks for your post, amazingblonde.
{ music } RHCP
{ book } Impolite Society
{ show } Gokusen
{ mood } hug attack
I feel stupid and so I'm writing this, just to make myself a little better. Why will this entry make me feel better, I don't know. I just want to. And when I do what I want, I just feel that endorphins are permeating every nerve of my body. Ergo, a happy me.
I was in Third Grade. It was a week before Valentines' Day. We were asked to make a card to give to someone in the class. I forgot who I gave the card I made (maybe Reyner, my silent best friend) but I remember perfectly who gave me a card on that week leading to February 14, 1998.
I think it was Friday, the day before V-Day that we were asked to give our card to THE person. Classmate after classmate went personally to their person to hand the card and say something... It was his turn but he didn't go. We teased him about the girl who we inferred he liked--we're a mix of nine and ten-year-olds so like is a good enough term for it. Joshua, his best friend came in front and whispered something to our teacher--he was going to give it on his best friends' behalf. He approached me and gave me the card. My classmates teased us. To me, it wasn't really anything. I was just ten years old. What do you expect? The card was made of oslo paper. It said Happy Valentine Day! (obviously!) and had a red ribbon in front. I forgot whatever was writen in it. It doesn't really matter.
Years later, in high school I ran into the card again. It was in the jumble of papers I keep in my study table. I can't help but smile as I recall that day and until now I still smile even though I already lost it. It is in my memory and I hope it'll be there forever so that I'll always remember that one day in my life someone made me feel liked in the cutest way.
Thank you Marvick for that card. You know for the longest time that I got a crush on you. Until now. I don't know why I like like you. I did once but as the song goes, "I remember the boy but I don't remember the feeling anymore." Yes, I still have a crush on you but we're on a stage where a crush doesn't really mean anything but a crush.
{ music } a ton of love songs
{ book } Impolite Society
{ show } Yakitate! Japan
{ mood } loved
Rizal '05, Ai-Love-Amor | 4 hollered back
This topic is one of the reasons why I thought of taking up Psychology in college. It's very interesting. We discussed it just this morning and I can't help myself being amazed with Sigmund. (yes. when on a first name basis) Don't you?! (a question to those who can relate to what I'm blabbering about)
There are five stages with which the theory is explained and related to our behavior as persons.
ORAL Stage (1-2 years)
In this stage, the center of pleasure is the oral cavity (e.g. thumb-sucking, pacifiers). If a child is overindulged or undersindulged, he will develop oral fixations like smoking, lollipop, nail-biting or anything with the relation to the mouth.
***I'm guilty with nail-biting--my bad habit for a very long time now.
ANAL Stage (2-3 years)
During this age, we are potty-trained. According to Freud, we experience pleasure in defecating. If the child is not properly guided, he/she may either become anal repulsive or anal impulsive. Anal repulsive persons are persons who learned to control their bowel movement to much that they can dictate and discipline themselves when to and not to excrete. Behaviors common to anal repulsive persons include being organized and tidy (too much) and very attached to things (e.g. accumulating a lot of things and never giving any away). On the other hand, anal expulsive persons have no control over their bowel movements and don't mind letting go. Behaviors common to anal expulsive persons include being disorganized, messy and they don't usually have problem in letting go of anything.
***I'm more anal expulsive than anal repulsive.
PHALLIC Stage (4-6 years)
The most controversial stage. According to Freud in this age, boys develop Oedipus Complex while girls develop the Electra Complex. The Oedipus Complex and Electra Complex are states where boys cling or are more close to their mother and girls cling more to their fathers. With this boys develop Castration Anxiety while girls develop Penis Envy.
***Never met my dad until I was eight. Experienced it later though.
LATENCY Stage (6-12 years)
Nothing much because of school
GENITAL Stage (12-up years)
From fathers and mothers, we now revert our focus to the opposite sex. Finding what we found in our parents in other persons.
That's it. Dig this psychosexual shit?! I do.
{ music } It's Gonna Rain
{ book } Impolite Society
{ show } Gokusen
{ mood } bored
He who has rejected his demons badgers us to death with his angels.
- Henri Michaux, Slices of Knowledge
I have always believed that good and evil co-exist with one another. It is such in a person. A person has good qualities and bad ones as well. That's a given. I also think that the good and evil coexist at the same level. Both are, in my own term, in extreme equilibrium. So far apart yet same in distance. So in the quote from Michaux's Slices of Knowledge, I can say that a person can be intolerable both in his being good and his being bad. There are some people you don't like because of some bad qualities which is very common while there are some people you don't like because their goodness seems false. It seems hypocritical already. We are not used to people who are beyond good and bad. Ergo, we tend to not like them.
{ music } silence
{ book } Slaughter-house Five
{ show } Yakitate! Japan
{ mood } thankful
Well, I watched the movie obviously and minus the crappy ambience and presentation, it lived out to my expectation. It is the Da Vinci Code. No more said.
As a reader, I'd have to say we need to give it up for Dan Brown's effort. As a writer, he has conveyed what he wanted to say. Maybe it's true, maybe it's not but who really cares about it. I enjoyed it. He expressed himself and with that he entertained me. I don't buy mysteries. My dig in mysteries is limited to Agatha Christie and that's that. He heightened my appreciation of art and history. He made me want to go to (Italy and) France all the more.
As a movie-goer, Ron Howard has done a good job. We must expect discrepancies (with the book) here and there but it went well. Of all the actors, I loved Paul Bettany's performance. Minutes into the movie, I couldn't believe it was him playing Silas. He has portrayed his part very well. Clap clap!
The book/movie suggests a lot of ideas and it has left us to decide which to believe. I believe in a higher power and I respect all religions, be it Judaism, Hinduism, Buddhism, Islam, Christianity or any other. As Vittoria Vetra pointed out in Angels and Demons, all this religions have one idea--that there is someone more powerful than all of us, that there is a higher being or something like that.
{ music } Brownman Revival
{ book } Zebra and Other Stories
{ show } flashback: DVC
{ mood } pensive
Just spent my noon with the infamous duo, Marion and Earl.
Earl is going to attend the Seminary. Imagine that! The nerve, JOKE! Instead of teaching and serving other people, he left to serve God. Marion and I are a little bit apprehensive. It's so unlike Earl to be a priest. Well, he always plays the priest when we need it in theater but that was it. Nothing more. Hmmm... there's nothing left to do but wait and see.
Just got my midterm grade in Acctg. I've been edgy this past few days because of this course. Just ask any Accountancy student and he/she would say that it is normal. Whew!
Met up with my friends in high school last yesterday. They watched DVC. I returned the battered 'Angels and Demons' book and received my batch shirt. It's medium though. Good thing it fitted me or else Reyner will be in big trouble.
I'm looking forward to the new school year. This one will be better. I will do so.
{ music } Random Dishwalla
{ book } Number the Stars
{ show } Zhang Ziyi: Creative Asian Beauty
{ mood } good
The X-Men Trilogy ended the way it started. At least figuratively. A debate.
The third movie was subtitled, The Last Stand. After watching the movie, it was obviously not the X-Men's last stand. Not that they didn't have a stand. It just seemed to me that it was more of a compromise than it was a stand. A stand is black or white, left or right and the X-Men were neither. They were not here nor there. They stayed in between, acting as a mediator between two opposing camps. These two opposing camps are the Brotherhood led by Magneto and Worthington Labs, the one who created the so-called "cure" that suppresses the mutant gene (permanently?!) The X-Men were not against the "cure" but they didn't support it either though one of them did take it voluntarily. in the climax of the movie, we see magneto's brotherhood on the left and worthington Labs on the right. The X-Men, count only six of them stay in the middle of these two, hoping to prevent the destruction that Magneto wishes to inflict especially when he has Phoenix, a Class 5 mutant to help him. (Class 5 is the highest level mutant.)
I LOVE...
... the Juggernaut/Shadowcat Cat-and-Mouse chase.
I HATE...
... Cyclops. I just don't like him.
SPOILER ALERT:
Three X-Men died in this film.
Three mutants loss their powers (permanently?!) One voluntarily, one during a fight and one during her escape. One is an X-Men and the other two are with the Brotherhood. You have to see the ending though.
{ music } Taylor
{ book } nothing!
{ show } Radio
{ mood } pleased
I'm so freaking happy last Saturday! Well, I guess a bit more subdued than that.
My final exams were finally, oh finally over. I found it hard the sleep that night because I keep on thinking about my Accounting exam which was a bit disconcerting. I kept asking myself where the hell did Ma'am Pena get those questions. Well, well, nothing more we can do. It's done and over with, so why worry? (If I flunk, It's a nightmare AGAIN! That's why.)
I went home after the exam. Home as in, Isabela City. I went directly from ADZU to the port which meant I brought my clothes, etc to school with me. Thank God for lockers! Home meant no more unpalatable food. I love everything the househelp in Isabela cooks! [yum yum]
{ music } PUVs
{ book } nothing!
{ show } X-Men III
{ mood } weird
My favorite TV show of the moment is Gokusen. It's based on a famous manga (READ: Japanese comic book). It's a story of a newly-graduated teacher, Kumiko Yamaguchi (Yukie Nakama) who comes to teach the worst section in Shiroukin High, Section 3-D. What the schools officials and students don't know is that she's the only heir to the Ouedo Clan, some kind of mafia or gang. Not you're usual teacher wannabe.
Yukie Nakama is famous for her role as Sadako in the Ring trilogy especially in Ring 0 and Jun Matsumoto, a member of the boy band Arashi and played the role of Doumyougi Tsukasa in Hana Yori Dango. Not familiar? Well, Hana Yori Dango is the original Japanese title of the hit series, Meteor Garden and Doumyougi Tsukasa is the original Japanese name of Dao Ming Si played by F4's Jerry Yan. Jun is definitely cute and younger looking than Jerry.
I'm so lame sometimes but I truly enjoy this series.
{ mood } relaxed
I've got nothing to do all day. This is what I've been wishing for since the first semester. Now that my wish has come true, I feel bored and useless. I live such a crazy and weird life.
Of all the subjects I've taken for the summer, Psych 102 was the one subject I so strongly felt I was going to flunk. I didn't study for the exams. I was a lousy listener as my teacher bubbled her way through the lessons in fluent gay linggo. And yet. I was exempted from taking the final exams.
The Math Finals was so easy. The greatest antithesis to our quizzes. I'm definitely going to pass it. Definitely! I could have been exempted from taking the final exam if I wasn't so edgy with my majors and yeah, a little bit lazy.
Accounting, well, nevermind. Wait and see... wait and see...
I'm going back to ZC on Thursday for the CMA Counsultation aka Judgment Day to know the subjects I'll take for the new school year. I'm excited with English. English is one subject I was never dissapointed with yet. Sir Ben is so cute. Haha I can't believe I just wrote that.
Enrollment is on June 6th and classes will start on June 13th. Can't wait...
{ music } forgot my charger too, no mp3 for me, hmph
{ book } i forgot My Side of the Mountain at ZC, another hmph...
{ show } New York Minute
{ mood } bored
In my life--yes, I do have one--I have my share of common experiences. Of all the common experiences I had, I'd say the Queen Bees were the best. I had two Queens, one in grade school and the other in high school. Shermalyn and Marion, yes--the Marion.
I had the taste the best and the worst that these two could offer. It's one of the experiences I love to relive over and over.
Shermalyn is one of the girls I have very great respect because she is beautiful and a bit conniving and yet she didn't abuse me. She didn't make me let her copy in exams. She didn't let me make her projects and stuff like that. I was one of them and that made my life a little bit easier. Well, I couldn't say the same for the rest but I was just lucky. Very very lucky.
Marion is a queen bee in his own right. He made friends with some and made other's life miserable too. Sherma and Marion are quite alike in some ways. He sure did make my life a little crazy but I welcome it. You can't stay mad with somebody who makes you laugh. That is very true with Marion. You get used to him. He has grown on me--like some parasite you got immune to. That's Marion.
I wrote this article as a primer to get my head working. Marion told me to write something about him. He got a little jealous with Pupung and his coming out articles. Marion is a good writer. Nobody tells a story like he does. Such REGENCY! I want to write about him too. His articles about himself are too narcisistic. I need to rein him in a bit.
{ music } PUVs
{ book } Richard Parker--I love Siberan tigers!
{ show } Saiyuki
{ mood } rejuvenated
I feel so dovey-dovey today. I don't know why. Maybe, it's because of Ton2x. Is love contagious?! Sorry, I really don't know. The old Foreigner song is so perfect for me, "I wanna know what love is."
I'm so pathetic and absurd. I have so many other important things to think and write about yet here I am writing about something so irrelevant.
This is what Groban songs and Neruda poems do to you--uncontrollable love sickness.
No one expresses love like Neruda does. Here is an example. I just can't help it. Darn!
Sonnet 44
you must know that i do not love and that i love you
because everyhting alive has its two sides;
a word is one wing of the silence
fire has its cold half
i love you in order to begin to love you
to start infinity again
and never to stop loving you
that's why i do not love you yet.
i love you, and i do not love you, as if i held
keys in my hand: to a future joy-
a wretched, muddled fate-
my love has two lives, in order to love you:
that's why i love you when i do not love you,
and also why i love you when i do.
translated by Stephen Tapscott
{ music } L-O-L-O-L-O-L-O-V-E
{ book } Pablo Neruda
{ show } Gensoumaden Saiyuki
{ mood } lovesick
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