Entries for June, 2006
Life, as they say or as the cliche goes, is full of ups and downs. Destiny conspired it to happen on the same day for me.
Today is CMA Consultation Day. To retakers, it's Judgment Day. I was antsy. I was already at the campus when I realized I left my ID at Isabela. I had to go back and get it or else, no consultation. I came back to Zamboanga, thirty minutes before 12 noon so I'm too late for the morning consultation and have to wait for the afternoon shift. Before that, I saw my Accounting Final Exam result and Final Grade and boy was I so relieved. I was consumed by happiness; it was beyond gratifying. Wait... wait... wait... The afternoon shift finally arrived but no Ma'am Pena. She went to Prudential to get a check of I don't know what for. She came back at 2pm. When it was my turn, I was happy that the consultation form was done. When I read my schedule, I was horrified. Shit! I'm on Block B?! I told Ma'am Pena that I am a Block A student. She replied that the incoming second year students were divided in two: 25 in Block A and 25 in Block B. Damn! Goodbye BSAc Bears, goodbye... *sob. There are only 50 students left in 2nd Year Accountancy and it will further decrease as expected. I want to be on Block A. I will be. Just wait... I'm not upset. I'm angry.
{ music } BSAc Bears
{ book } my f*****' schedule
{ show } the future
{ mood } so Sanzo-ish angry!
I love writing. I love to read. I have my taste and style on both of those things. I can't say I'm a good critic but I do know a stock of English that's enough for me tell a good write-up from a not-so-good write-up. I just can't help myself. The copywriter in me is screaming, begging me to suppress what I can. So here it goes...
many people have limited vocabulary. I do to. So to help us in our writing we usually use the dictionary or the thesaurus. Many people substitute words that are so far from what they mean. Example, you want to write, "We need to preserve the fruits for them to last longer." Many find the word "preserve" too ordinary so they look up it's synonym in the thesaurus. They find "embalm" as one of its synonym and find it smart-sounding so they substitute it. The sentence now reads, "We need to embalm the fruits... etc." Do you get what I mean?! It's so silly and dumb but it's one of those common mistakes. I beg those who commit the same sin to please look the synonym's meaning first before using it as substitute.
many people are adjective-crazy. They think their write-up will be more beatiful if there are a lot of adjectives in it. I've read an article where almost all his nouns had adjectives. It was a headache. I guess he wanted to sound smart but hell, no! He sounds like he's struggling to be like Marion but fails to.
there's something worse than adjective-crazy pips. It's the adjective-crazy writers who don't know their adjectives. Dear me!
I know I'm not really a good writer but I do know what I read. So as a reader, I am not pleased with writers who are like those mentioned above. It's okay when it's your style but I do also know when it's style and when it's a mistake.
{ music } So Sick
{ book } My Side of the Mountain
{ show } the campus
{ mood } annoyed
I took up on reading children's lit for quite some time now. Below are the books I want to read. The crosed-out ones are the titles I have.
Newbery Medal Winners, 1922 - Present
2006: Criss Cross by Lynne Rae Perkins (Greenwillow Books/HarperCollins)
2005: Kira-Kira by Cynthia Kadohata (Atheneum Books for Young Readers/Simon & Schuster)
2004: The Tale of Despereaux: Being the Story of a Mouse, a Princess, Some Soup, and a Spool of Thread by Kate DiCamillo (Candlewick Press)
2003: Crispin: The Cross of Lead by Avi (Hyperion Books for Children)
2002: A Single Shard by Linda Sue Park(Clarion Books/Houghton Mifflin)
2001: A Year Down Yonder by Richard Peck (Dial)
2000: Bud, Not Buddy by Christopher Paul Curtis (Delacorte)
1999: Holes by Louis Sachar (Frances Foster)
1998: Out of the Dust by Karen Hesse (Scholastic) 1997: The View from Saturday by E.L. Konigsburg (Jean Karl/Atheneum)1996: The Midwife's Apprentice by Karen Cushman (Clarion)1995: Walk Two Moons by Sharon Creech (HarperCollins)1994: The Giver by Lois Lowry(Houghton)1993: Missing May by Cynthia Rylant (Jackson/Orchard)
1992: Shiloh by Phyllis Reynolds Naylor (Atheneum)1991: Maniac Magee by Jerry Spinelli (Little, Brown)1989: Joyful Noise: Poems for Two Voices by Paul Fleischman (Harper)
1990: Number the Stars by Lois Lowry (Houghton)
1988: Lincoln: A Photobiography by Russell Freedman (Clarion)
1987: The Whipping Boy by Sid Fleischman (Greenwillow)1986: Sarah, Plain and Tall by Patricia MacLachlan (Harper)1985: The Hero and the Crown by Robin McKinley (Greenwillow)1984: Dear Mr. Henshaw by Beverly Cleary (Morrow)1983: Dicey's Song by Cynthia Voigt (Atheneum)
1982: A Visit to William Blake's Inn: Poems for Innocent and Experienced Travelers by Nancy Willard (Harcourt)
1981: Jacob Have I Loved by Katherine Paterson (Crowell)1980: A Gathering of Days: A New England Girl's Journal, 1830-1832 by Joan W. Blos (Scribner)
1979: The Westing Game by Ellen Raskin (Dutton)
1978: Bridge to Terabithia by Katherine Paterson (Crowell)
1977: Roll of Thunder, Hear My Cry by Mildred D. Taylor (Dial)1976: The Grey King by Susan Cooper (McElderry/Atheneum)1975: M. C. Higgins, the Great by Virginia Hamilton (Macmillan)
1974: The Slave Dancer by Paula Fox (Bradbury)
1973: Julie of the Wolves by Jean Craighead George (Harper)
1972: Mrs. Frisby and the Rats of NIMH by Robert C. O'Brien (Atheneum)
1971: Summer of the Swans by Betsy Byars (Viking)
1970: Sounder by William H. Armstrong (Harper)
1969: The High King by Lloyd Alexander (Holt)1968: From the Mixed-Up Files of Mrs. Basil E. Frankweiler by E.L. Konigsburg (Atheneum)1967: Up a Road Slowly by Irene Hunt (Follett)
1966: I, Juan de Pareja by Elizabeth Borton de Trevino (Farrar)
1965: Shadow of a Bull by Maia Wojciechowska (Atheneum)
1964: It's Like This, Cat by Emily Neville (Harper)
1963: A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L'Engle (Farrar)
1962: The Bronze Bow by Elizabeth George Speare (Houghton)1961: Island of the Blue Dolphins by Scott O'Dell (Houghton)1960: Onion John by Joseph Krumgold (Crowell)
1959: The Witch of Blackbird Pond by Elizabeth George Speare (Houghton)
1958: Rifles for Watie by Harold Keith (Crowell)1957: Miracles on Maple Hill by Virginia Sorenson (Harcourt)1956: Carry On, Mr. Bowditch by Jean Lee Latham (Houghton)
1955: The Wheel on the School by Meindert DeJong (Harper)
1954: ...And Now Miguel by Joseph Krumgold (Crowell)
1953: Secret of the Andes by Ann Nolan Clark (Viking)
1952: Ginger Pye by Eleanor Estes (Harcourt)
1951: Amos Fortune, Free Man by Elizabeth Yates (Dutton)
1950: The Door in the Wall by Marguerite de Angeli (Doubleday)
1949: King of the Wind by Marguerite Henry (Rand McNally)
1948: The Twenty-One Balloons by William Pène du Bois (Viking)
1947: Miss Hickory by Carolyn Sherwin Bailey (Viking)
1946: Strawberry Girl by Lois Lenski (Lippincott)
1945: Rabbit Hill by Robert Lawson (Viking)
1944: Johnny Tremain by Esther Forbes (Houghton)
1943: Adam of the Road by Elizabeth Janet Gray (Viking)
1942: The Matchlock Gun by Walter Edmonds (Dodd)
1941: Call It Courage by Armstrong Sperry (Macmillan)
1940: Daniel Boone by James Daugherty (Viking)
1939: Thimble Summer by Elizabeth Enright (Rinehart)
1938: The White Stag by Kate Seredy (Viking)
1937: Roller Skates by Ruth Sawyer (Viking)
1936: Caddie Woodlawn by Carol Ryrie Brink (Macmillan)
1935: Dobry by Monica Shannon (Viking)
1934: Invincible Louisa: The Story of the Author of Little Women by Cornelia Meigs (Little, Brown)
1933: Young Fu of the Upper Yangtze by Elizabeth Lewis (Winston)
1932: Waterless Mountain by Laura Adams Armer (Longmans)
1931: The Cat Who Went to Heaven by Elizabeth Coatsworth (Macmillan)
1930: Hitty, Her First Hundred Years by Rachel Field (Macmillan)
1929: The Trumpeter of Krakow by Eric P. Kelly (Macmillan)
1928: Gay Neck, the Story of a Pigeon by Dhan Gopal Mukerji (Dutton)
1927: Smoky, the Cowhorse by Will James (Scribner)
1926: Shen of the Sea by Arthur Bowie Chrisman (Dutton)
1925: Tales from Silver Lands by Charles Finger (Doubleday)
1924: The Dark Frigate by Charles Hawes (Little, Brown)
1923: The Voyages of Doctor Dolittle by Hugh Lofting (Lippincott)
1922: The Story of Mankind by Hendrik Willem van Loon (Liveright)
{ music } La Familia
{ book } Summer Sisters
{ show } Man of the House
{ mood } geeky
Finally, I get to post this one. It's long overdue, partly my fault because I went home and fed my groupmates information online and Joyce kept forgetting to give me a copy. So this is our (Joyce, Kareen and me) final work for Engl 112-Academic Writing with Sir Ben Halili.
Why People Read Less
Reading provides us with many benefits like leisure, spiritual insights and an aid to meet our daily needs. But the most important is the enrichment of our experiences which helps in our personal assessment and development. According to Fielding et al, book reading can build background knowledge of many different topics. It can aquaint children with the various structures of narrative and expository text. It can promote vocabulary growth. Finally, book reading serves as self-initiated practice, an opportunity for young people to orchestrate all of reading skills they have been taught. Lin Yutang, a Chinese-American philosopher hints that people whose daily habits include reading are prevented from getting bored (qtd. in Gray 13).
With the increasing number of books being published comes the decreasing number of prospective readers. On the average, American adults may spend only five minutes per day reading. Older adults, on the other hand, appear to spend more time and read an average of almost one book a month. Based on the studies about the extent of children’s book reading, Greaney reports that children do the greatest amount of reading in the near end of their elementary years. After this, they seem to do less and less leisure reading, especially of books. Children surprisingly seem to spend less time in reading books than doing other leisurely activities which are of fewer benefits to them (Mason and Au 479). Fifty percent of the fifth graders being studied by Fielding, Wilson and Anderson, read books for less than four minutes a day, 30 percent read only for two minutes a day or less while 10 percent do not spend any of their time to read a book. A majority of the children spent 1 percent or less of their free hours reading books (480). A noteworthy interview with these children shows that except for one or two of them, all admitted that reading is not always their number-one favorite past-time (481).
Why do young people read less books nowadays? This paper explores four probable causes that lead to this social phenomenon – the dearth of reading at home and lack of emphasis by the school, the fast pace of modern living, a reader’s taste and preference, and the competition for leisure time.
Recreational reading, especially by young people has declined over the past 20 years (Kolloff). Parents and teachers have been recognized to play major roles in the improvement of a child’s literacy (Heilman, Blair and Rupley 52). Most young people are unmotivated aliterates (Beers 110). This means that they do know how to read but choose not to because they do not have any enthusiasm to do it. This situation has lead us to one of the major causes which is the dearth of reading at home and the lack of emphasis in the school. The home and the school are known to be the prime venues of reading—from the ABC’s to short fiction, and from involuntary reading to recreational reading. It has been noted that most parents now are the working kind. Parent reading involvement has lessened and continues to do so as years go by. If the parents do not read, or read only in limited amount during their children’s growing years, the potential development of their lifetime reading habits is handicapped (Gray 10). A person’s educational background also serves as an aid for his appreciation of book reading. There is a trend labeled as the “dumbing down” of schools. Vail lamented the fact that enjoyment and self-esteem, rather than intellectual engagement are the goals of many of the curricular practices in today’s schools—causing projects and hands-on activities to replace serious involvement with literature and ideas (qtd. in Kolloff). In many schools, basic reading instruction is well-emphasized but not recreational reading (Gray 12). Students now rely greatly on the lessons that were provided inside the classroom giving less emphasis to the books that were provided to them in the library. Together with the school academic standard for appreciative reading, teachers also go with this. They must have a rich literary background—one that is both wide and deep for them to carry out their responsibility of teaching their student to excellent and appropriate literature. There are, however, evidences that prove that many pre-service and in-service teachers are not prepared nor do they particularly value reading as an enjoyable, enriching experience (Kolloff). According to research, out of 246 undergraduates who were surveyed just prior to student teaching, forty-two percent reported that they were either not currently reading for pleasure or they were only reading magazines and newspapers. In another survey made to a recent group of 28 entering freshmen to take up Education, thirty-nine percent were not reading books for pleasure. Many teachers do not read for pleasure and thus, do not excite their students about reading. They do not immerse their students in literature in the classroom and as a result, these young people do not develop a love or habit of reading. A teacher who puts just the right book in a student’s hand is a powerful motivator (Kolloff). Limited involvement with literature especially by parents and teachers gives rise to many consequences. One of which is the fact that young people who are in subject to their influences, read less now.
The rapid lifestyle now presents a new obstacle to the growth of reading appreciation. Considering the pace of modern life, people now may have other purposes in mind—from having a meal in a fast food restaurant to surfing the internet that is why they have to limit their reading habit. Everyone seems to be high keyed and in a great hurry. According to the author, Linda Gray, “it naturally takes more time to read a good book of characterization, such as Clancy Sigal’s price-winning novel, Going Away, than to read a paperback mystery or to glance through magazines, where reading assumes a secondary role (12).” Magazines in fact, tend to be more appealing than books nowadays, for no other reason than that they require less time commitment. The thickness of a book or any reading material has been in great consideration by readers –the thinner the better. The modern living is associated with a race to get ahead of others, to succeed. People demand everything to be in a fast tempo so they feel rather reluctant to read books that require both time and mental effort.
The taste and preferences of a reader toward the book’s theme is viewed as a key to his involvement of reading. “It depends on likes and dislikes of people (Eglish.Kulichki.net).” A person’s interest is independent of his upbringing at home and in school. “Interests ordinarily induce pleasant anticipation followed by the action itself, which in turn brings more pleasure (Bond and Tinker 448).” It serves as a motivation to do things that will bring a person great satisfaction. Books that offer topics that meet the interest of a person are the ones which are more likely to be read by him. Aliterates, as being defined earlier, are of three kinds based on their reading interests, dormant, uncommitted, and unmotivated. The dormant readers are those who voluntarily read during certain periods like during their lunch break. Uncommitted readers do not like to read yet are open to the idea of learning to enjoy books more in the future. Lastly, unmotivated readers do not enjoy reading and have no future plans to begin it (Beers 30). Thus, taste and preferences of readers may serve as a decisive factor for their appreciative reading.
People read less now because there are so many forms of entertainment available. 100 years ago, there were no television sets, game consoles or internet so all people could do was read books. Nowadays, people can choose different ways of relaxing and getting information. There are varieties of entertainment that people can choose from. Book reading as a recreational activity must compete with attending motion pictures, listening to radio, watching television and driving cars (Gray 11). People are spending most of their time using media like computers, internet, video games, television and other source of entertainment. Studies show that the total amount of media content young people are exposed to each day has increased by more than one hour over the past five years (from 7:29 to 8:33), with most of the increase coming from video games (up from 0:26 to 0:49) and computers (up from 0:27 to 1:02, excluding schoolwork) (www.kaisernetwork.com). As new technology becomes available, young people are very eager to make use of them. On average, young people spend 3:51 a day watching television and videos, 1:44 listening to music, 1:02 using computers, 0:49 playing video games, 0:43 reading and 0:25 watching movies. Three out of four young people read in a typical day, averaging only 43 minutes a day (www.kaisernetwork.com). The other hours are spent on media, school, work and other activities. With today’s so called electronic age, reading is the oldest way of leisure. It becomes the last option of entertainment. Furthermore, books look boring that young people prefer to watch television and use other forms of media. Books lack the instant appeal of television and internet. This is the main reason why people read less nowadays.
According to Vicky Rideout, MA, a Kaiser Family Foundation Vice President," kids are spending the equivalent of a full-time work week using media, plus overtime." This shows that they prefer visual and auditory activities than reading. Reading demands that we sit still, be quiet and concentrate hard enough to decode a system of symbols and follow extended arguments. Television and its electronic brethren are less strict. We can be cleaning, daydreaming or half-dozing; they do not seem to care. All television demands are our gaze. According to Postman, "thinking does not play well on TV (Stephens)." This is the reason why many prefer to watch television. One does not need to think hard enough to understand the story. One does not need to imagine what the book tells. Television provides the necessary pictures and all he has to do is watch and listen. This is advantageous to people who are too lazy to read. They can watch the film so there is no need for them to look for the book and read it. Furthermore, people can watch the film in groups. Unlike in reading, one has to do it alone to unlock its secrets. The choice of reading also depends on the likes and dislikes of the person. Parents may encourage their children to read by enforcing rules regarding the frequent use of media. Teachers may also motivate their students to make recreational reading a habit. But in spite of the efforts of both parents and teachers bearing only a slight effect on the children, the influence of the media on them is stronger and more appealing. It has also been discussed how reading declines because people are busy nowadays. However, studies show that they have plenty of time using the media. They spend at least 8 hours a day using it (www.kaisernetwork.org). If people are busy, then they would not spend much time on that. Even if the book’s themes meet ones taste and preferences, still the immediate contact with modern technology will offer him various options to satisfy his interest leaving the book as his last resort. This leads that media and other forms of entertainment is the primary reason why people read less now.
Reading still plays and, for the foreseeable future, will continue to play a crucial role in our society. Nevertheless, there is no getting around the fact that reading’s role has diminished and will likely continue to shrink. People read less now because of four reasons — the dearth of reading at home and school, the rapid lifestyle of people, the taste and preferences, and the increasing numbers of other forms of entertainment such as the television, video games, computers and others. Among these, one can say that the media is the most probable cause of reading less. In this electronic age where visual and auditory activities are rampant, are we moving on to becoming an illiterate generation? Some believe that the decline in reading does indicate some cultural challenges but this may not be for worse. According to Wendy Lesser, editor of Three Penny Review, “I know a number of extremely intelligent adults who do not read more than a book or two a year but still remain healthy, active contributors of the society (qtd. in Stephens). ” Those who think so argue that the logic inculcated by print is not the sole way of processing information in this modern world. And if given the time, these electronic media might be capable of creating a culture as intense and deep as that of reading and transforming themselves into means of transferring ideas with the reach and capacity of print.
But still as many believe, the decline of reading can lead us to an illiterate society. Students who watch more and read less are losing command of their writing. Young people today often have a considerable difficulty filling a page with clear and precise sentences. There is a decline in writing skills as much as written language demands stricter rules of syntax and grammar than spoken language and these are the rules being codified first in dictionaries and grammar books are all learned in school. However, many fail to learn them now. The sentences of the electronic age, being supplemented by images are likely to get away with playing under more lax rules. Michael Siverblatt of “Bookworm” said, “Just as people who do not work out cannot do certain things with their bodies, people who do not read cannot do certain things with their minds.” Watching television, listening to music, playing videogames and surfing the net are passive activities and thus require less thinking. Furthermore, Boorstin calls people who do not read as being “self-handicapped”, which means that when one fails to grab the opportunity to read books, he as well misses all the benefits that books hold—leaving a gap in his life. He adds, “A person who does not read is only half-alive (qtd. in Stephens).” If many people do not read then the society itself is both half-alive and handicapped.
{ music } Earl while impersonating Sir Ben
{ book } The White Mercedes
{ mood } nostalgic
I don't have anything to do. My friends are spending their time making themselves useful with our school's Freshmen OrSem while I'm here making myself fatter with my gluttony and lack of things to do or simply laziness.
I am preoccupied with a thing or two but I don't want to be. I'm not Jamie. I am not gratified by bridging/mediating two souls together. It's just not me. I'm sorry, Jamie for dragging you into this and throwing it at you. It just seems so easy. You're simply annoying. Now that I wrote that, I just made everything worse but then again, I'm so sick of this shit. I know I haven't fallen in love yet but I don't understand the lengths one takes for love. When it's over, it's over. It's painful, yes, I know but then isn't it more painful to wallow in it than just figure a way to get over it. I hate bridges. I don't indulge in a position Jamie loves to be in. This last thing I'm going to do IS the last thing. It's suffocating. I don't understand myself, why I'm writing this but then again... grrr...
{ music } Jeepney
{ book } Island of the Blue Dolphins
{ show } The Legend of Zorro
{ mood } annoyed
The first week is over. So good, so far.
{ music } Avril
{ book } modern Database Management
{ mood } tired
I've got five minutes to write this stuff.
Today is my friend, Ethel's birthday... Happy Birthday Tela! [she's 17]
Tomorrow is my father's birthday. Thanks to Ethel for reminding me. Haha
I still haven't processed my sister Francine's photos. Oh, what's the rush?! I want to rip her apart. She's just a kid and I hate her for that. Innocence is bliss. She'll grow up and I can't wait for that to happen. That would be my bliss.
My aunt wants me to absent myself to go back to Basilan for my father's birthday. Like hell I will. My mom was in the brink of death but I didn't go home because I had an Accounting exam and now she wants me to blow my just starting second-year in college for a birthday party?! Give me a break. [This is absolutely not an exaggeration!]
I've got to get the birthday cake so... END.
{ music } Dishwalla
{ book } accounting notes
{ show } A Love To Kill
{ mood } rushed
Many people have come and gone in my life in the past eighteen years. This post is dedicated to those people. Thank you very much.
{ music } Just The Girl
{ book } HP5
{ show } My Girl
{ mood } contemplative
Last night while I was reading DVC yet again, I received a text message that wasn't meant for me. It was from a friend, Jacob and it was for Clariz, also a friend. I will just paraphrase most of the things since I deleted the messages na. It read, "Clariz, pabor abla kun Lizette na numa kumigo escribi na disuyu blog igual akel kun Pupung. wahahahaha" (Please tell Lizette not write anything about me in her blog just like with Pupung.) By the way, I'm Lizette. He sent the message directly to me. Touche!
Talk about hypocrisy. People love to see write-ups about them no matter if it's negative or positive. That's just how it is. They love publicity. Look at Marion, such a perfect example though he is the one writing about it himself [damn better!].
People wonder why I still like Marion after what he has done to me. I'll say this. Marion isn't a hypocrite and an actor. He doesn't play you like some others, making you feel that they're so good when they're really downright rotten. Marion is rotten. Take it or leave it. I took it. When you hate me, please just tell it to my face. I'm not a coward you know. I can take it. Show me some balls and I'll respect you and your opinions more. How can you respect someone when he/she can't even face the one he's/she's angry with? Arguments and confrontations are good with me and are damn better than talking behind someone's back about how evil and demonic he/she is.
To Jacob, sorry for the inconvenience. It really is a private entry. As I've texted you, I have ethics. Pupung gave me the permission to write and post those entries about him. I wouldn't write anything without your permission. If I do write, it would be anonymous and would not implicate your name in any way. Common sense would tell you not to react or else it would be your fault now.
I was laughing all night about it. The whole thing was howling mad. It took my mind of secret societies and symbology for a while. When you're with people like the ones mentioned in the third paragraph, solitude seems to be a better company.
{ music } some 60's or 70's hit
{ book } DVC
{ show } Aquamarine
{ mood } weird
I just watched Aquamarine last Saturday. It was okay. It 's such a lame thing to say but I'm tired so there.
School's picking up the pace and I'm here to introduce you all to my new instructors. Tadah!
"Ha?!"
"Totoo ba?! Hindi joke?"
"He, ansina? Ele?!"
"Really? No kidding?!"
Those were the reactions I get when I say that my RS 111 (Religious Studies: Christ as the Center of our Faith) is none other than Fr. Nicomedes Yatco. He has such a reputation but he's quite good or else Ma'am Peña wouldn't have personally asked him to teach Accountancy students. Fr. Yatco said, according to Ma'am Peña, those who pass his class usually pass the Board Exams. Talk about basis. Is that how hard his class is?! I don't know but it is how hard he is as a teacher.
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My accounting teacher for Acctg 230 is Ma'am Leonora Peña. She is dubbed as the "Smiling Tiger". She has this cute smile. She loves watching TV and usually includes it in her lessons. Jang Geum, Julian, NatGeo, etc. etc. She is not as strict now as she was back then. You could say she has the reputation of a tiger but now, she could never be more tame.
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Those two first. I said I'm tired nga e.
{ music } some old love songs
{ book } Maniac Magie
{ show } Deal Or No Deal
{ mood } tired
I feel like shit today. I just saw my friend's pics from Canada. She migrated there last year.
I am jealous as well as sad at the moment. It sucks. Jealous, in the sense that I want to go abroad--travel leisurely--but I seem am stuck in the Philippines. Don't get me wrong, I don't want to leave the Philippines. I just want to get away. It doesn't have to be Canada. I want Japan though, just before spring. Oh, well. Someday I will travel abroad and when that time comes I know I'll make the most of it. I'm sad because I miss her. Our friendship may be fractured but then I love her. I'm a person who doesn't keep grudges but painful memories are hard to forget especially when you're me--a person who wallows in sad memories a lot. She hurt me but what hurts more is that I miss her and that our friendship will never be the same again.
I just realized that I do love my Dad because only the people you love can cause you much pain. And that goes with Angie. I guess I'll miss you... pour toujours.
--just remebered peyups' carravaggio's article about 'i miss you' and I now feel it to be true. Thanks Che!
{ music } I Miss You Like Crazy
{ book } The World of Jesus
{ show } pics pics pics
{ mood } missing someone