Entries for August, 2006
I'm not here to justify my being who I am. I don't think I have to. I'm here to talk like I always do. Yes, I always do.
I forgive easily. For me, forgiveness is a given. Forgetting is another story. I have this habit of reminiscing painful moments. I love to wallow in sadness and despair. Yes, you can forgive a person as many times as he has done you wrong but it will never be the same. Scars will always remain. Ugly forgiven memoirs. It's sad but true.
I'm selfish and I don't think there is anthing wrong with it. How can you give out something you yourself have never enjoyed? I'd rather be selfish than discontented. Someone has to be satisfied and happy. Is it wrong to want that someone to be myself, me?
How do you measure happiness? I measure it by the number of times I have good company. I measure it by the number of times I'm alone, basking in tranquil solitude. Do I make other people happy? I hope so. I hope so.
I'm annoying. Maybe, it's an understatement for some. I can't help it. It's in my genetic make-up or something. As the saying goes, you can't teach old dogs new tricks. Yes, I am an old dog.
I'm domineering. I'm bossy especially with people who don't assert themselves--people who I can drag along whenever, wherever and whatever.
I'm personally independent. I hate people who can't do anything for themselves, people who can't make and stand for their own decisions. The I'll-eat-what-your-eating and I'm-not-going-because-she's-not-going kind of people. I can do almost everything alone--take a bath, pee and poop, eat and drink, walk and travel, watch movies... yes, it's more enjoyable with company (except pee and poop but I know some who do) but at least my actions are not limited to and with those who are around me.
I am, by society's standards, lazy. I wasn't taught by my mom to help in household chores, values and manners mandated by society, et cetera... et cetera. Did I miss anything in life because of this? I don't think so. Society is full of rubbish, I don't think you should listen to it.
I'm getting convoluted more and more. I better stop this.
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{ music } Stars Are Blind
{ book } A Gathering of Days
{ show } My Girl
{ mood } twisted
ADORABLE!!!
It's been a long time since I last wrote here. I've been so busy.
I got sick. I've been down with a bout of tonsilitis, enlarged adenoids (just look it up!) and influenza just two weeks before midterms.
Midterms has come and gone. I just saw my grade in RS and I don't want to talk about it further. My Dad will give me a field day. Sheesh!
I can't write further. I just lost the will. Why did I check the damn e-class?! This is so infuriating!
{ music } Just The Girl
{ book } Mixed-Up Files
{ show } 101 Most Awesome Moments in Entertainment
{ mood } I want to shoot somebody!
My dear old dad didn't give me a nag after I told him the RS thingy. He even joked that I should just convert into Islam. Geez!
I was dreading this morning's PE class. After I finished it, I loved it! Taekwondo is enjoyable. It's just like you're dancing. I love dancing and speaking of dancing, JC asked me if I would join him in an alt klas [alternative classes this September for Social Involvement Month (SIMO)] for dancesport. I'm flattered but no, I refused. I'll just embarrass myself.
It's was Kareen's birthday last Monday. I still can't find time to buy her chocolates--my birthday gift for her. She's everyone's (BSAc Bears) favorite person. Astig mo talaga, Mung2x! hehe ü
'My Girl' is going to end today. No more late night TV watching, that is, if there's no worth-watching TV show to replace the timeslot.
My class will end at 16:30 today. I so envy Nouriza's schedule. All their classes are held in the mornings and they have the afternoons free except when they have PE which is once a week, 13:00-15:00. Our schedules changed when the high school department transferred to Tumaga. Last semester and the semesters before, College of Management and Accountancy (CMA) students usually start classes late morning or early afternoon and end early evening. Now, we start early in the morning and end late in the afternoon just like high school. Puh-leese! But we get used to to it and there's nothing we can do about it.
The week is about to end and I can't wait to write again.
{ music } When I Met You
{ book } The Mixed-Up Files
{ show } NatGeo
{ mood } refreshed
NEW BELOIT COLLEGE MINDSET LIST LOOKS AT ENTERING COLLEGE STUDENTS, GROWING UP WITH NO SOVIET UNION, ONE GERMANY AND BAR CODES
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.Beloit, Wis. - A rite of autumn is under way with the arrival of first-year students at thousands of colleges and universities for registration. Most 18-year-old students entering the class of 2010 this fall were born in 1988. They grew up with a mouse in one hand and a computer screen as part of their worldview. They learned to surf the internet as they learned to read. While they were still in their cribs, the 20th century started to close as the Berlin Wall came down, the Soviet bloc disintegrated, and frequent traditional wars in Latin America gave way to the uncontrolled terrors of the Middle East.
Each August since 1998, as faculty prepare for the academic year, Beloit College in Wisconsin has released the Beloit College Mindset List. A creation of Beloit’s Keefer Professor of the Humanities Tom McBride and Public Affairs Director Ron Nief, it looks at the cultural touchstones that have shaped the lives of today’s first-year students.
According to McBride, this year’s entering students form “a generation that has always been ‘connected’ and is used to things happening in ‘real time,’ like live satellite coverage of revolutions and wars, instant messaging and movies on demand. They expect solutions for every problem, from baldness to diseased organs. To the chagrin of teachers and parents, they’ve developed their own generational means of communication.”
The Beloit College Mindset List is used by educators and clergy and by the military and business in their efforts to connect with the new generation. Beloit creates the list to share with its faculty in anticipation of the first-year seminars and orientation. “It is an important reminder to faculty, some of whom are only a Ph.D. older than their students, that what we call ‘hardening of the references’ can set in quickly,” according to Nief. "It is meant to be thought-provoking and fun, yet accurate. It often provides the base for good opening seminar discussions as faculty and students address the challenges of examining important issues from differing perspectives."
Read on... (Mindset 1988) for incoming freshmen born on the year 1988.
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{ music } One More Try
{ book } Mindset List
{ show } Love Story in Harvard
{ mood } pensive
I have just realized that I don't know what I really want in life. I thought I did, that I figured it all out before I graduated highschool but then here I am lost in the sea of void. There's always a pause between reality and realization. Mine was an awefully long pause yet I also figure that I don't want to turn back and start all over again and end up the same. How do you know what you want in life? How do you know that this is it? I want to do a lot of things and I end up doing nothing. Accounting is such a bore. There, I just said it. I want a profession I'll enjoy yet I don't want to shift. I wasted so much time. I completely am torn between this stupid ambivalence. Help!
{ book } Nothing! for once... haha
{ mood } aggravated