Entries for November, 2006
I abhor self-righteous people. Funny thing is, I am self-righteous myself. So, I guess, what goes around does come around.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I just read something a friend wrote and I just can't help but laugh. How all-knowing we think we are! How self-righteous can we be! Hell, I don't care what people think of me anymore. You can never really know a person, you know. I don't want to be measured by your measly standards.
Sometimes, it's not easy to forgive and forget because seeing the person who caused you pain means scratching the scar and letting it bleed once again.
It's Pupung birthday today. He's turning 19.
Happy Birthday, Pung! I miss you sooooo much. XOXO
I'm going back to Zamboanga tomorrow. I can't wait to go back and hang-out with the BSAc Bears--you rock! I'm still jittery about the whole Acctg thingy though. It's driving me nuts. It's the only grade we're all waiting for--not to mention the most crucial and nerve-wracking of all.
I don't know what to expect on the first day of the second semester of my second year in college. But if all goes well then I'll just do better. I don't know why I'm slacking off. The whole college thing seems suddenly boring and I tend to be lazy. It's not just me though. Everyone seems to be experiencing the same thing. Even Martin. Except Joyce--Boom-Boom always does good everytime! hehehe
Goodbye Semestral Break! Hello Second Semester!
{ music } Nothing In This World
{ book } Half-Blood Prince
{ show } High School Musical
{ mood } determined
I woke up with this uncomfortable feeling of dread. Maybe, it's just because of yesterday. What happened yesterday?! Well, the verdict is out. I didn't pass Accounting 230. Ergo, I have either retake the subject or shift to another course. I was really thinking of shifting to Financial Management but I opted not to when I had the difficulty of tracing my path towards Accountancy that way. It will take me 5 years to finish the course but what the heck! I'll have to really focus now since I don't have the luxury of slacking off anymore because if I'll fail another major then I'll end up following the new accounting curriculum which includes business calculus in its prospectus. I really don't want that to happen.
So how's the second semester so far? We met all teachers except for Economics. My Humanities instructor knows my grandmother and to my horror mentioned this fact to the entire class. He was shocked to know that my grandmother already died (a year ago!) and said they became friends when she still was the Superintendent of the DepEd Zamboanga City Division. Religious Studies is still the same. Fr. Yatco's still the one teaching and in class, announced again his gratitude to me for being a "good beadle", to my embarrassment. I had to add and drop subjects--drop Acctg 240 and 250 and add Acctg 230. We're also taking up Mandarin for Foreign Language class. Our instructor is Mr. Sun Zhi Xin or as he asked us to call him, Sun Lao Shi. Lao Shi is mandarin for teacher. Here's a quote Gen took from our Humanities teacher, Mr. Quiling's long homily a while ago in our first meeting: "If you do not appreciate beautiful things then you are not a human being." Crazy huh?! Hehe
I finally was able to buy myself a copy of Nick Joaquin's The Woman Who Had Two Navels! Thanks to the Book Fair at school. I'm eyeing several other books: The Artemis Fowl Files-Eoin Colfer, A Wrinkle in Time-Madeleine L'Engle and many others.
{ book } The Woman Who Had Two Navels
{ mood } okay
I may have done you a discredit when I wrote my entry, "Stop It!". I reiterate: People can never really know and understand, no matter how many years you've grown or spent together. Another thing is that people do change and that's a fact. I know you're just trying to help but no, I don't need it. Sometimes the best help someone can give somebody is to just lay-off and let him or her be. You're not a piece of shit. You're a human being worthy of everything the world can offer. I do have an open mind and I don't give a crap on my sensitivity. The deal is this: Sometimes, you just have to stand your ground and say "STOP!" They're digging up the past and make it seem like it's still an issue when in fact to me, it's over. It is over. I hate going through it all again. That's what this is all about. I'm sick and tired of Earl and what he is doing--acting like he's the victim when it's he who is the root of all the shit that went on. Sometimes what people need is a good round of spanking or a bout of bitch-slapping. I'm sure as hell, Earl needs it. He needs to wake up. I'm good but when people push me, I can really be a bitch. After all, they asked for it. He asked for it.
{ book } The Woman Who Had Two Navels
{ mood } predatory
I'm not mad at you. I never was. I find what we're doing funny though. Writing up posts to someone anonymously pero hindi naman talaga anonymous.
We should not mind small minds like Earl na makupal at madrama. Pero alam mo yun, nakakainis na sobra na kailangan mo nang patulan para matapos na. We need to stop writing on the subject pero I really don't want to. I'm kinda enjoying it--we get to lay down the cards, our opinions or whatever. HAHA
I know na prerogative mo na mag-suggest or mag-advise pero sometimes unsolicited advices can do more harm than good. I learned that harshly--nung grade school, OUCH talaga!
So I guess, this is the end of it. Thank God!
Ewan ko kung bakit naisipan kong mag-Filipino. Trip ko lang. 
{ book } The Woman Who Had Two Navels
{ mood } thoughtful
It's the end of my first week back at school. I think I'm going to watch "The Banquet", that is after I finish my Econ assignment. I'm kind of nervous with my subjects this semester especially with Economics 112 and Management 201. I don't know why.
I also got my new ID today. I lost my original ID. I'll miss it. I was collecting all the validation stickers until I graduate but due to the loss, I won't be able to do so. My ID starts with this semester's sticker. Tsk tsk It's plastic na though unlike the first one.
Pretty boring.
{ book } The Woman Who Had Two Navels
I'm really worried that I'm suffering from some kind of quarter life crisis. I just can't put my finger on it though. It's a mix of self-pity, doubt and fear. I just can't stand it anymore. I wake up suddenly in the middle of the night with this scared pitiful feeling. It wells up and makes me stare at the ceiling for a very long time wondering lost into oblivion. I've been thinking of counseling. I really need a pick-me-up. My neurons need a charge but I have to stop thinking. That's the problem with me, I think a lot. It's so stressful you want to smoke or drink.
PS: I've finished watching "The Banquet". I still need to think it over. It's kind of confusing but overall it's a really good movie. I'm dome with homework except for Mgt. Grrr...
PPS: Che, I miss you too. Thanks for sharing to me the value of missing someone. Carravaggio! Hehe
{ music } Hurt
{ book } The Woman Who Had Two Navels
{ mood } weird
I don't have a very nice schedule this semester. It's a good thing that it's a very short one as Fr. Yatco emphasized yesterday. It's a hint that our quiz is "coming soon" which I think means Wednesday. I got a locker at last. Some nursing students broke into our line and made the otherwise straight line curve. People really can't understand English these days. But thanks to Kerz's amazing abilities we got priority numbers ahead of them. Good riddance!
So to the real reason behind the title. Because of my uncooperative schedule, I have classes from fourth floor of the LRC Building to the third floor of the High School Building and vice versa. When I go down the stairs of the high school building, I can't rush because there are people who are seating on the stairs. I am so miffed. Can't they make out the difference between stairs and chairs?! They seat there like they own it and we should excuse ourselves while going down since we might step on their "costumes". My friends excuse themselves while going down but I say these people don't deserve any because they shouldn't be there in the first place. They may have business in that place since it's their floor but stairs are neutral--they don't own it.
{ book } The Woman Who Had Two Navels
{ mood } grumpy
I've been tired since the semester started. I don't know why. This week it got worse because I got sick (FLU). My whole body hurts yet I didn't do anything strenuous. I really am longing for a back massage and a snooze. ZETTE hurts so bad. 
The Ateneo Fiesta is coming up on November 24th. At least, I don't have to go to school really early and come back home late all the time. Our Christmas Break starts on December 21st. I'm still too sore to be happy for the upcoming festivities. 
I really need a sedative. I want to stay in bed and sleep all day long but I can't. I have class. Grrr...
{ book } The Woman Who Had Two Navels
{ mood } drained
It's almost Fiesta. I'm feeling better already.
My Dad went here (Zambo) yesterday. He's on his way to Ozamis for some job seminar. I don't know if he already arrived, the trip takes like 18 hours. When we had dinner last night, I felt weird because the last time I had a conversation with him (thru text; It qualifies as a conversation to me), it was a big argument. How peculiar beings we are. Maybe, Lean (my half-bro) is so jealous of me because even if I myself am seeking a fight with our Dad, he doesn't sort to violence when it comes to me. And mind you, I do deserve some slapping. *sigh* Bliss the advantages of being a daughter!
Just met up with Marion now. I do hope he finds enough funds for his college to get by in the Ateneo Fiesta. No one can survive the fiesta with just a PhP30,000 budget! In our college, our year is in charge of the booth. Making it will be fun.
{ book } The Woman Who Had Two Navels
{ mood } relaxed
Me, Kittey and Joyce enjoying the Christmas Party at Mae-Mae's. (2005)
Me with Zelle and Gen at Coca-Cola. (2006)
BSac Bears Accounting 201 Class. (2005)
Jhoe, Kristal, Pearl, Kerz, me, Gen, and Bob at the LRC steps. (2006)
Gen, Sin, me, Joyce, Bob, Kerz, Lace, Jego, Kittey, Jeff, Pearl and Leah at SIMO '06.
{ book } The Woman Who Had Two Navels