Entries for June, 2007
I got disappointed with the result of the consultation. It turned out that I couldn't take two subjects I thought I could. I ended up taking Business Calculus (Math 125) instead of Systems Analysis Design (IT 131) and Business Finance (Fin 211) so now I have two Math subjects this semester. The other one being Quantitative Techniques for Business (Math 123). What's worse is that I can't make the most out of my scholarship since I'm six units below the maximum alloted. We're still petitioning for Advance Accounting 1 (Acctg 250) to open this semester. Accordingly it takes twenty students. If it will open, I might consider dropping Math 125. Two Acctg subjects and two Math subjects are too much for any student to handle. But going back, I feel that I will waste the units I could've taken. On the other hand, I may be compromising my studies because taking all those subjects is tantamount to academic suicide seeing that all of them are Majors. This is a tough decision to make.
I'm still in the Accoutancy program. There were two options given to us by our department chair, Mrs. Peña. They are (A) to shift to Financial Management and graduate regularly, that is, after fours years (2009) and go back to Accountancy the next year and graduate on 2010 OR (B) stay in the program and graduate after five years (2010). The first option seems ideal since I'd be getting two degrees instead of one but I decided against it since it implies that I have given up and lost the determination to finish in the program outrightly and that far outweighs the factor of being practical.
I've done a lot of thinking yet it doesn't seem to be productive. My future is at stake here. Things are starting to get serious. It should be.
{ book } Fortune
{ mood } scared
The NAMASTE activities are over for now. The incoming facilitators' training ended yesterday and finally Tara and the rest of us can take a breather.
Kareen hit it when she texted us saying that it wouldn't be as enjoyable and worthwhile without the Bears being there as well. Bonding with them is the best.
{ book } Fortune
{ mood } cheerful
Can't Live Without
Current Craze
{ book } Fortune
{ mood } giddy
I'm watching Shrek 3 today. And yes, I'm watching it alone. It has nothing to do with not having someone to watch it with (cue: Marion saying I'm sexually frustrated.), it's just I enjoy watching movies alone. What's wrong with that?
I just sent Nouriza money to buy me Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows since we don't have decent bookstores here in Zamboanga. The bookstores here either overprice the books or don't have the books I want to read. I can't wait. I had it sent directly to our school because it will surely be delivered there. I know it's too early but I had it reserved at NBS. I can't thank her enough for the favor.
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Unexpected. Yes, it is. I don't know what erotic love is all about. I have yet to feel it. But you are the third person to make me feel jittery and infatuated. One-sided or not, I feel good and that's all that matters. 
{ mood } bouncy
Fetish, Ai-Love-Amor | say what?
I really don't know what's going on with my high school classmates' lives right now. I'm usually the last recepient of news. I don't know who broke up with whom, who knocked up whom until we meet again or I see Marion, the bearer of gossip since he goes home more often than me.
I brought this up because of Clariz's text message a few days ago and it struck me because I'm one of those who were once so attached with our friendship. The text message goes: Sometimes we need to forget about people from our past because there must be a good reason why they didn't make it to our future. I don't know if it was just another forwarded message or if it was really meant for me. But in as much as it affected me, I just want to talk about it.
(1) The Need To Forget Why is there a need for you to forget someone just because he isn't visible or involved in your life right now? Isn't it involuntary for us to forget?
(2) The Relevance of our Past to our Future Isn't our past a substantial factor to our future--that the people and events in the past shaped who we are and our future?
There's nothing constant in our lives. That includes the people we come to know. The important thing is that we appreciate them for coming into our lives and touching it. Yes, it hurts knowing that your friendship is not how it used to be but be happy in the fact that once you held each other's hand and had a wonderful journey together.
We may hold other people's hands now and go on a different journey but the memories of our time together will be remembered fondly. If not by others, at least by me.
{ book } Financial Accounting and Reporting
{ mood } content
I went shopping for a school bag on a whim yesterday. I feel I'm too old for Cosé and rugged backpacks. I wanted a leather bag but not the old lady kind. Where did I go? Ukay-ukay. There are a lot of good quality, branded and vintage pieces if you just look hard and long enough. And I really don't go for imitation. It's the real thing or I'd rather wear my Cosé bag. HAHA There were a lot of Louis Vuitton's. It's too overrated. I spotted a Balenciaga but it was too old fashioned and small. There was this Sisley duffle that was perfect except it was a bit frayed. What did I buy? I bought an original Stefanel bag for Php 270.00. Woohoo! It's quite nice and big--fit for school. I didn't even know it was a known Italian brand until I googled it and found out Gisele Bündchen was endorsing/modeling it. Well, it was a good find--the leather, zipper and handle are all in fine condition. I don't know how to appraise items that well so I don't know if it was a good deal.
I'm making my dad buy me new school shoes because my old shoes' insole is just horrific. It still looks good in the outside but it just so uncomfortable already. I can still get it repaired though.
I'm also getting new uniforms made. My pants got lots of tiny holes in them because they get caught on the rough edges of the seats in C28 and it gets runs.
So much for being shallow and materialistic, on to serious things.
Classes start on the 12th. This is going to be yet another long weekend thanks to PGMA. People really go for their convenience, don't they? Holiday--their dates are really losing their essense. Independence Day is still on the 12th and therefore people should commemorate it on that day.
{ mood } excited
My Dad and I came home this morning. Obviously, I'm lounging in front of the PC again--downloading stuff from the net, scribbling on my blog to affirm my existence and being horny. HAHA
I'm quite happy with keeping an online journal. I'm not really one to keep journals and diaries. I always forget and my hand has a problem with keeping up with the pace of my thoughts which run in light years. I was reading my archives a few days ago and I can say that my writing has improved since keeping a Tabulas. Thank God! Practice does help a lot.
NB: If you read this without a title and hanging, the power went out yesterday. HEHE
I've uploaded the photos from the NAMASTE Facilitators' Training in the Photobucket account I created for the Org/Group. Everyone's bugging me for the photos. It's been a long-time-coming since I've been busy spending the rest of my summer the way it should be spent: SLEEPING and DOING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. The summer roadtrip and Dakak plans went caput just all of a sudden. I don't know why. I'm not in the mood for swimming anyway. Shopping and sightseeing would have been fun though.
I just had my fill of my stepmom's jackfruit salad. I swear she's the best cook ever. She'll even beat Bobby Flay anytime if I'll be the judge. Sutukil lunches are the best! YUM YUM
School starts tomorrow. I have three classes. My school day starts late this semester in contrast to the last two which both start at 7:30. I sound overly complicated, don't I? Anyway, Fr. Yatco has another batch of Accountancy students to terrorize. I miss him. I really gotten used to his ways.
Another year. It's another year.
Put your seatbelt on and hold on tight. I bet it will be another bumpy ride.
{ show } The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants
{ mood } lethargic
It seems that I'm always early for everything. And I'm not at all patient. But it's better off than always being late. I think.
I'm an early morning person and I usually leave the house as early as I finish prepping up for the day. I feel useless at home and so I'll only stay at home if I want to be useless and do nothing but stare at the idiot box and indulge in my favorite cardinal sin, gluttony.
The first week of school is about to end and it's been fine except that I've been marked absent in the first day meeting of our Accounting class. I really hate myself for that. It's just me--I hate being absent or late in anything! But it's done. 
Apparently, my dad is staying at Zamboanga longer than he thought he would. He's been stationed at the Petit Barracks branch for about a month now and he's been transferred to the Veterans branch this time. He's getting off work earlier now and offered to pick me up. Yey! No more tiring and claustrophobic jeepney rides hopefully.
I still don't have black leather shoes for next week. I have to nag my dad about it later so we can buy it tomorrow before he leaves for Basilan. I'm still thinking if I'll come home or not. It is just the first week. After all, what's the 45-minute distance, right?
I just finished reading Shopaholic and Sister by Sophie Kinsella. I loved it! It's way funnier than Confessions of a Shopaholic. I haven't the chance to read Shopaholic Takes Manhattan and Shopaholic Ties the Knot yet though but I'm so looking forward to it. Sophie Kinsella is a must-read chick-lit author. You can't just help but fall in love with the flaws and admire the determination and persistence of Rebecca Brandon (née Bloomwood).
Notable Movies: Snow Falling on Cedars, Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (all book adaptations) I going to be thrilled if they make a movie out of the Shopaholic series.
Movies I Want To Watch: Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, Next, National Treasure: Book of Secrets, Hairspray, Nancy Drew, Fracture, Georgia Rule, Fracture, Ratatouille
{ book } Sophie's World
{ mood } illogically scared
I just received news yesterday that my friend, Nouriza, suffered a stroke. I really don't know what happened. All of my high school classmates including me were shocked when we heard the news. It's so very highly unlikely for it to happen to her. I was just texting her weeks ago and then this? It is just so puzzling. I mean, Earl and I are more likely to have it more than her. I hope she's now okay. Last I heard, she couldn't talk or walk. I'm so worried. She's been such a good and thoughtful friend. She has dreams and I so want her to achieve them. Please pray for her speedy recovery.
Ethel's having a full-blown Debut on Saturday and it's driving me crazy. I'm one of the 18 candles and I don't have anything to wear. I was rummaging my closet for anything, something not-too-shabby to wear to a semi-formal event. There's my Kamiseta skirt that never seems to disappoint but I've worn it too many times and one time to a debut also. There's also this knitted skirt which seems classy yet I feel it screams "I'm old!" more than "Vintage!". And then there's the problem with the tops. I found several dresses which I would have loved to wear but sadly there's Ethel waving the "WEAR PINK" banner in my face. Why does it always have to be pink or white? Why not black? Ethel's not even Chinese nor am I so it doesn't really matter. Dressing up is such a nightmare to a person who has no wardrobe to speak of. I bought this GAP shirt but on second thought erased the idea of wearing it. It just won't work. I don't know what to do! I can already hear my stepmom and dad blaming my size for the lack of choices. Oh, f$#@ it!
{ mood } ditzy
The dreaded moment has passed. I finished Ethel's debut without any glitch which is more than I can say for Marion. He got his eyebrows plucked at OroDerm and it turned out horrible. He now fashions brows that would befit the best of drag queens. Too much drama even before the party starts. Only a few of our high school friends were present—Jehza and Lily, my 18 candle-mates, Adelfa, Lea, Hazel, Trixie and of course, Marion and moi.
The day of the party, Marion and I went shopping for his gift which we ended up sharing. Both of us agree that it's hard to buy Ethel a gift. He wanted to give her something "quaint" and "sweet" which he literally meant to be a book, a chick-lit more specifically. I argued that Ethel isn't much of a reader and he reasoned that it's about time to make her read. We rummaged book stores for good choices but there's so little to be had. We finally picked one of three books which is entitled Maneater by Gigi Levangie Grazer. (The choice was not intentional. It is not meant to describe the receiver of the gift, in any way. LOL)
The birthday cake almost burned down because the candles were too short and the 18 candle thingy was longish since we, the 18 candles were to say something, something. Ethel ended the party with a poem which I'll be posting once I get a copy. Ethel's poem is quaint and sweet. It's written in Chavacano. I'll try my best to translate.
We, the "high school friends" went home after picture-taking. We ended the night gossiping devilishly. I tried my best to tone it down. After all, we were barely out of the venue. What a night it was!
{ music } Kiss Me Fool by Fefe Dobson
{ book } The Emperor of Ocean Park
{ mood } working
It's been, what?! Three weeks in school and I'm so tired already. I have to do an essay due tomorrow for Philo 100 about My Sense of True Wisdom and I don't have any idea how to begin with or even what to write. I will also have my first long exam on Math 125 (Business Calculus) on Friday and I didn't understand the last example given by our teacher. Help me!
{ book } A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius by Dave Eggers
{ mood } worried
Wisdom or true wisdom evokes a multitude of meanings; the meaning or description varying from person to person. I believe that wisdom is living in terms of what is truly important. I must say, however, that realizing or choosing what is truly important encompasses a great deal of decision making in which one must exercise good judgment. Incidentally, good judgment is also one of the descriptions of wisdom.
In life, we are faced with a lot of choices because we can’t have everything at the same time and so there is a need for us to prioritize. What comes first is not easy to determine. There are a lot of things to be considered. Being wise means knowing how to discern the significant from the trivial. Life is full of things and it is up to us to be wise—to know what to choose because things are not always what they seem. What we think is material may not be at all. There lies the need for good judgment. Making wrong choices—choosing the things that do not really matter and spending your life with it is unfulfilling and ultimately is a complete waste of that life.
More than the knowledge of what is truly important, wisdom is LIVING in terms of that knowledge. It is working towards the realization or acknowledgment of what is truly important. Life, as they say, is too short to be spent on things that are inconsequential.
I think the main point here is that true wisdom is more than just knowing, it is living out what you know. In other words, true wisdom is applied knowledge—knowledge that is put into good and right use.
{ mood } Hope this turns out fine!