Entries for February, 2008
I wrote about coming home (Basilan) last Saturday with my Dad and not having reason to do so. It turns out that there is a reason why I came home. My stepmom's dad--my step-grandfather, if there's such a thing--had his second MI and died Monday around 2:00AM. (I go back to Zamboanga every Monday AM.) It was so sudden. No one expected it to happen and end that way. Death is pretty unpredictable. I'm sad because he's the closest thing I had for a grandfather. My maternal grandfather died before I was born and my paternal grandfather went missing. I'll miss him.
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A few weeks ago, while I was lounging in our sofa watching TV, I received a call from my stepmom. She wanted to share the news of my half-brother's name since she knew I was curious. I just wanted to know his name and nothing more. It's Lester Roy. I don't know where my Dad got it. I'm Meredith and he is one of my Lexi-s. Enough said.
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I've mentioned quite a few times that I'm into old movies. I got to watch Cabaret last Wednesday. It's a 1972 movie adaptation starring Liza Minelli and Michael York of a play set in 1931 Berlin. It won 8 Academy Awards and I must say it was well-deserved especially the Best Actress to Liza Minelli and Best Supporting Actor to Joel Grey who played Salie Bowles and Master of Ceremonies respectively and were both divine. I loved the songs The Money Song, Mein Herr and Maybe This Time--and to think they were not part of the original Broadway production! It was great. I especially loved the scene where Brian Roberts (York) confronted Salie (Minelli) about Max (Helmut Griem):
Brian: Screw Maximilian!
Sally: I do.
Brian: So do I.
Sally: You two bastards!
Brian: Two? Two? Shouldn't that be three?
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I found this uber cool sandals in OK! mag and googled it. I love them! I'll get me a pair of orange ones.
Check it out: Dopie Sandals
{ book } The Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde
{ mood } bouncy
I know, I know. I promised. I made a promise to my dead mother and I'm breaking it.
I just love weird and in this case, dopey things. I can't help it. I just want to have them--bad!
I already know I'm already bound for eternal damnation anyway so why not make the most of it?!
I'm getting WHITE!
{ book } Double Fudge by Judy Blume
{ mood } excited
I got to watch Juno finally. I love it! Some people might not like the tone and what it suggests though.
I just came from a meeting set by Sir Shing (Director Of Scholarships) for all scholars. I'm famished and I really need to get a bite and head home. I have a mini case problem to "solve" for Finance and two case summaries to finish for Law. Urgh!
I'm watching The Tudors and it got me thinking back to History lessons. Wait, what History lessons?! HA! I need to ask Marion for a rundown.
I'm having problems with the size of Dopie I need to order. Are Havaianas the same size as Dopie?!
{ book } Double Fudge by Judy Blume
{ show } The Tudors
{ mood } rushed
TV/Movies/Music, ADZoo, Fetish | 2 hollered back
Ever since yesterday evening, all I could think about was this vile number. It makes me sick to my stomach and I feel like my heart was ripped off my chest. F***!
Seriously, I never take it well. Modesty aside (I don't think modesty is one of my attributes anyway.), this is new to me. I have been Miss Top-of-the-Heap, Cream-of-the-Crop Honor Student for most of my academic life and this just hurts so bad.
Another lesson learned. <wretch>
I'll make up for it. This is not a promise but an ultimatum to myself.
Shifting is not an option. I don't want it.
{ book } The Traveler by John Twelve Hawks
{ mood } morose
I can't believe this is happening again. My brain feels like it's floating above my head--it's like a good but incessant hangover. What's causing it?! It's too lame but I have to tell. It's the whole point of blogging it. So... this is all because of Hana Yori Dango.
Hana Yori Dango is a manga turned television show. It's the original Japanese version of Meteor Garden. I watched Season 1 and 2 over the weekend and I can't seem to stop thinking about it even after the last episode--no, especially after the last episode. All I could think about until now is F4 and Makino Tsukushi. Argh! This is my personal opinion: Hana Yori Dango is way better than Meteor Garden in terms of story (since it stuck with the original manga).
It's a love story--kind of lame when you think Atonement and There Will Be Blood. But it is so cute and funny--it makes me giddy all over.
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Speaking of love and sweet nothings, it's almost Valentines' Day. (To Ateneans, Valentines' Day is also PAASCU Day--not that it's a big deal to the students.)
To you, whoever you are:
{ show } Jun Matsumoto and Arashi
... is what I'd like to write but that's not the case. There is no "He" to begin with.
I'm trying to focus on other things--mundane and trivial things--because I can't seem to get off thinking about school. Horrid and infuriating thoughts keep lurking in my mind and jumps up when they get the chance. I tried drowning it with thoughts of Domyouji Tsukasa/Jun Matsumoto but that just made me want to bang my head against the wall. It is so ludicrous. I am so absurd. My mind needs to get a breather from reality but letting it wander off to LaLa Land won't do it any good. I have had enough of daydreaming. I already wasted a lot of time mooning over irrelevant and stupid things. What my mind needs is some kind of stable neutrality to fix my broken sanity. Gee! I rhyme. There must be something wrong with me.
So what does this have to do with love? Not meeting grade requirements, for me, is a heartbreaker. And like most heartbreaks, it's not easy getting over this one. You try to distract yourself with other things, insipid as they may be, but you soon find that instead of bailing you out, it pushes you back even more. Think, death sentence. The realization sets in and you're in a fix. How do you progress from such a stark situation? I have been in this relationship for most of my life and I am in love with it and what it stands for--a future that holds a great job, a comfortable and happy life and perhaps, Japan. I have had this love affair with ambition ever since I can remember. The concept of it is well grasp but the execution escapes me and what's left are blunders. Nevertheless, I'm still in the game and it ain't over until it's over. I just have to be more careful but I'm putting my heart on the line.
There is no turning back.
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How many times have I written this?! Hmph!
{ book } As Time Goes By by Michael Walsh
{ mood } distressed
ADZoo, Ai-Love-Amor | say what?
Last Saturday, my dad came to Zamboanga to attend a cockfight. Apparently, he was misinformed and since there were no boats travelling back to Basilan, he was stuck. I had my eyeglasses refitted with new lenses (from 175 to 225!) and after that we went grocery shopping. I love shopping groceries with my dad. Needless to say, I had fun. Later that night, my dad and I went out for some drinks at the Lobby Bar. The Southwinds were playing and it was great to wash away the week's stress with cocktails and some good old mellow music. I got myself a margarita, then a tequila sunrise, and two vodka lamonades and stuffed myself with crispy fish fritters. We went home at around 11PM which was good since I still have to attend the Benefactors' Gathering early next morning. It was great day!
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I've just realized I'm still his princess. And for that, I'm glad.
{ music } Would You Still Love Me Tomorrow by Amy Winehouse
{ mood } pleased
Ai-Love-Amor | 5 hollered back
Contrary to what my father thinks, I'm not doing any work. I've started with the papers from October yesterday but I'm not done with it and I still have November and December. I'm bored. I've been surfing the net since 8AM--checking out books on eBay and Amazon and updating my accounts in Shelfari, Friendster, Multiply and of course, Tabulas.
Che and I seem to live parallel lives lately. We are both very grateful for the friends (Bears) we have and are certified bargain book hunters. And we're doing accounting work for our parents. All of course, for different reasons. Hmmm...
Anyways, I'm stoned and I have a overdue long quiz on Cost Accounting tomorrow. <dread> We still have Finance classes since our teacher's seminar was postponed. <double dread>
I'm still thinking whether or not I'm going back to Zamboanga this afternoon. I can go back tomorrow morning and suffer cramming for my quiz. Urgh!
Back to work... or not!
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Today is Dia de Zamboanga and it's a holiday. I'm not there though.
{ mood } bored
I love Japan and almost everything Japanese eversince watching Sailor Moon and those Japan Ministry of Foreign Affairs videos they used to show in some UHF channel I already forgot. I love the country even though I haven't set foot in it yet. Travelling to Japan has always been one of my dreams.
Why do I love it?!
There's the animé: Sailor Moon and Slam Dunk (when I was about 7 years old) to Fushigi Yuugi, Yakitate! Japan, Bleach and Eyeshield and many others (today).
There's the art: ikebana, origami and furushiki. I love furushiki--it's so cool.
There's literature: from haikus to mangas.
So... to cut this short, I've been looking forward to watching the Hana Yori Dango Final. It's a movie that picks up a year from the marriage proposal in the end of Hana Yori Dango Returns. It will be shown in Japan on June 28th. Hopefully, I can get a copy of it or better yet, it will be shown in the local cinemas here in the Philippines.
Here's the teaser. Enjoy!
Online Videos by Veoh.com
{ mood } excited
Fetish, Ai-Love-Amor | say what?