Entries for April, 2008
I have a major iPod problem. My computer does not recognize my iPod Shuffle. I tried to look for solutions on the net but it just made me feel worse. Apparently, Apple is "cleaning out" all first generation iPods. Here's the thread: iPod Shuffle (1st gen) Not Recognized. Gaah! My iPod is running low (orange) on the battery. When it turns red, it will be useless. And I just bought it two Christmases ago! I'm so hating Apple because of this. I won't buy an iPod anymore. I'm going to buy another mp3 player. I'm thinking of a Sony PSP but I have to save for it first.
Speaking of saving money, in order to do that, I have to earn it first and so I'm unofficially working at the gas station. I say unofficially because I haven't handed my application in yet. I'm still writing it. Although, I think I want to be conpensated in ways other than receiving the minimum wage. I still can't negotiate since my grades aren't in yet. If they're alright, I can have a go at it but if not, I don't really think negotiating is an option. Not with my dad.
I went to Zamboanga yesterday to run some errands for my dad. I was rushing the entire afternoon but before that I had lunch with Lace and Che. I passed by school to get my copy of Marejada and the Beacon. It's the last issue for both MR Andrada and Henry Segovia as writers/editors. It's kind of hard to imagine the magazine or even AdZU without them. The College of Education ruled the Graduation, with MR and Henry as valedictorian and salutatorian respectively and Lei Labrabor being the only Summa cum Laude of the batch. Congratulations to Batch 2008! To paraphrase the yearbook theme, BIG things are ahead of you--good luck and God bless!
SUMMER is here! And I can finally enjoy it.
{ book } The High King by Lloyd Alexander
{ mood } cheerful
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Extroverted (E) 64.52% Introverted (I) 35.48%
Intuitive (N) 55.88% Sensing (S) 44.12% Thinking (T) 52.78% Feeling (F) 47.22% Judging (J) 68% Perceiving (P) 32% |
Your type is: ENTJ
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ENTJ - "Field Marshall". The basic driving force and need is to lead. Tend to seek a position of responsibility and enjoys being an executive. 1.8% of total population.
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ENTJ - The Leader
Profile by Sandra Krebs Hirsch and Jean Kummerow
ENTJs take charge quickly and deal directly with problems, especially in situations that involve confusion and inefficiency. They provide structure to the organizations to which they belong and design strategies to accomplish their personal and organizational goals. They are 'take charge' people who organise their own and others' external environments. They use their resources to find a way to meet the challenge. They are at their best in using their analytical and strategic thinking.
Living
ENTJ children need to have goals for everything. These goals may be related to achievements such as swimming the fifty-yard freestyle on second faster than they did the previous year, getting a straight-A report card, or winning the school math contest. They seek power and control. They want to have an impact. Because of their desire to take charge, they are often leaders.
ENTJs enjoy an active and diverse lifestyle. They are likely to be in extracurricular activities and often function as the team captain, the president, or the leader. They pursue leadership roles very directly and have difficulty following others unless those individuals demonstrate more competence than they themselves have. Even then, it may be tough for the ENTJ to follow long.
ENTJs are likely to commit to a career goal early, often in their teen years. They determine their overall goals and objectives and what it will take to accomplish them. Whatever ENFJs do must make sense to them according to their logic or they have difficulty doing it.
In mature adulthood, ENTJs are often in leadership positions in their work organizations. They go after what they want with fusto. They set their sights high and work hard. Work and its related activities may become their lives. They may find retirement unsettling, boring, and difficult because it may bring with it a loss of the power that they had during their working years. Often they make arrangements so that they do not have to retire.
Learning and Working
ENTJs see education as one of the major ways of getting ahead. They are willing to learn about the past and what is but always with the mind-set of how that information affects their future. They particularly enjoy critiquing and solving problems. They apply their logical systems view to the issues they deal with. They want to change things to fit their concept of what should be. They learn best through a variety of instructional methods, including lectures and group activities. Without variety and action in the classroom boredom sets in.
ENTJs like to debate and view problems from all sides. They are comfortable critiquing and analyzing. and do not mind intellectual conflict in the classroom. They like challenge. They may have a general study plan laid out, with test dates and paper deadlines noted. They set up a schedule and work to attain the goal within that time.
At work, ENTJs contribute a wealth of energy directed toward the goals and those of the organization. Their sense of identity is closely tied to how they carry out their responsibilities. They are curious about new ideas and theories, evaluating them in terms of their goals. They are very efficient, competitive, strategic, and task focused.
Occupations that require tough-mindedness, goal direction, and a global perspective tend to attract ENTJs. They use logic and analysis to form conclusions, to organize themselves and others, to give direction, and to take charge. Some occupations seem to be especially attractive to ENTJs: administrator, attorney, consultant, credit investigator, labor relations worker, manager, marketing personnel, mortgage banker, personnel professional, systems analyst, and other occupations that allow them to use their strategic sense.
Loving
For the ENTJ, love needs to fit into the overall picture and may become subservient to their larger goals. Love is always within the context of what the relationship is. One ENTJ stated, "I don't allow love to course freely through my body. God forbid that it should control me rather than I control it!" Love means a match between the ENTJ's needs and what the partner provides. The loved one is, in a sense, an extension of the ENTJ's vision, preferably acting in a supportive, not competing, role. ENTJs tend to make rigorous demands of love. While they may fall in love easily, they maintain that love only if the other person is willing to accept the ENTJ's directness and need for independence.
Because attractiveness is a part of our culture and an initial standard for many relationships and because ENTJs like to do better than the standard, they particularly take note of the attractive people. The often wonder if they can 'win the heart' of the attractive other. It becomes almost a game for them.
The partner of ENTJ can expect a hard-working and industrious provider who may use the fruits of his or her labor as an expression of love. They may not be as verbally communicative of their loving feelings as others types.
ENTJs expect to have their needs met in relationships, while maintaining their independence. When the partner can no longer do that, it is logical for them to sever ties and to move on. However, when ENTJs are scorned by others, they may feel a passionate devastation and a strong sense of loss that is seldom shared with others. However, this sense of loss and gloom generally lasts only a short period before they are ready to move on.
Profile by David Keirsey
If one word were used to capture ENTJ's style, it would be commandant. The basic driving force and need of ENTJ's is to lead, and from an early age they can be observed taking over groups. This type is found in approximately 5 percent of the total population. ENTJ's have a strong urge to give structure wherever they are-to harness people to distant goals. Their empirical, objective, and extraverted thinking may be highly developed; if this is the case, they use classification, generalization, summarization, adduction of evidence, and demonstration with ease. They resemble ESTJ's in their tendency to establish plans for a task, enterprise, or organization, but ENTJ's search more for policy and goals than for regulations and procedures. An ENTJ's introverted thinking (analysis and conservation) may be less well developed than the extraverted thinking processes, and the ENTJ leader may turn to an ENTP or INTP to provide his kind of input. ENTJ's are similar to INTJ's except that the former places greater trust in empirical thought than in intuition; it is the ENTJ's own intuitive sense of coherence, however, that augments and supports their empirical thinking.
Career
Although ENTJ's are tolerant of established procedures, they can abandon any procedure when it can be shown to be indifferent to the goal it seemingly serves. Inefficiency is especially rejected by ENTJ's, and repetition of error causes them to become impatient. For the ENTJ, there must always be a reason for doing anything, and people's feelings usually are not sufficient reason. When in charge of an organization, ENTJ's more than any other type desire (and generally have the ability) to visualize where the organization is going and seem able to communicate that vision to others. They are the natural organization builders, and they cannot not lead. They find themselves in command and sometimes are mystified as to how this happened. As administrators, ENTJ's organize their units into a smooth functioning system, planning in advance, keeping both short-term and long-range objectives well in mind. They seek and can see efficiency and effectiveness in personnel. They prefer decisions to be based on impersonal data, want to work from well thought-out plans, and like to use engineered operations-and they prefer that others follow suit. ENTJ's will support the policy of the organization and will expect others to do so.
ENTJ's will usually rise to positions of responsibility and enjoy being executives. They are tireless in their devotion to their jobs and can easily block out other areas of life for the sake of work. They will be able to reduce inefficiency, ineffectiveness, and aimless confusion, being willing to dismiss employees who perpetuate such behaviors. ENTJ's tend to work in organizational structures of some sort, tend to be in charge administratively, and rise to top levels of responsibility, whether in the military, business, education, or government.
Home
ENTJ's take charge of the home. When an ENTJ is present, there will be little doubt as to who is in command. Because their work is so important to them, however, they can become increasingly absent, especially if male. Male or female, ENTJ's expect a great deal of their mates, who need to possess a strong personality of their own, a well-developed autonomy, many and varied interests, and a healthy self-esteem. A career wife, however, may not be appealing to an ENTJ male, who is apt to view his home and family as a part of his professional background, a resource, and adjunct to his own career development.
As a parent, an ENTJ will be thoroughly in charge, and the children will know what is expected of them and will be expected to obey. When this does not occur, an ENTJ parent is not apt to make a scene; rather, there is more likely to be a low-key, firm issuance of reprimand and a taking-for-granted of immediate obedience. While both mating and parenting are roles of importance to the ENTJ's, they are to some degree preempted by the ENTJ's strong career interest. The romantic dream and the quest for the ideal mate is usually not a characteristic of this type. ENTJ's generally do, however, expect a home to be attractive, well-ordered, with meals served punctually and maintenance accomplished on schedule-all these in the service of the larger goal of creating a family system where children can be reared to be productive and healthy and establishing a devoted, harmonious relationship between man and woman. An ENTJ male might expect his mate to be active in civic and community affairs, to be socially sophisticated, and as well educated as he. The ENTJ female may find it difficult to select a mate who is not overwhelmed by her strong personality and will.
Midlife
At midlife the ENTJ's tendency to be somewhat unaware of the feelings of others, including those close, may be an area that could be given attention. But perhaps the most important midlife task of the ENTJ is to begin to allocate time and energy to pursuits which are not work-connected and to begin to develop a larger repertoire of play skills. Putting off vacations, travel, hobbies, and family should be avoided.
Mates
The ENTJ is a natural "fieldmarshal," that is, he's itching to get his hands on several "armies" so that he can marshal his forces and conduct the "war" as it should be conducted. If our ENTJ is in charge of any kind of enterprise, however small, his temperament dictates that he run it as he would his armies-with an eye to long-term strategies and their derivative tactics, logistics, and consequences. In startling contrast to this, the fieldmarshal is enamored by the "flower child," the bucolic artist ISFP, tranquilly ensconced next to Walden pond! Perhaps the ENTJ wishes a spouse who will share with him or her the quiet of the forest and field far from the madding crowd, thus separating home from work by a great, insulating distance.
The ENTJ is attracted also to his opposite in the Appolonian camp: the monastic and questing INFP. What in the saintly or knightly (St. Joan of Arc, Sir Galahad) INFP calls the ENTJ fieldmarshal? First note the outward similarity of the INFP and the ISFP. Perhaps it is this, the underlying missionary outlook of the INFP. In a sense, both INFP and ISFP have great missionary zeal, the former enlisting the spouse in the quest, the latter in the tranquil respite of nature?
... but it's over for now. The Ceniza's of Basilan are officially going on vacation. Finally! Thank God!
We're going to Palawan (via Manila, of course!) and I'm so excited.
But before the vacation (It's scheduled on the first week of May.), I have reunions(?) to attend to. Rizal '05 are meeting on Saturday (April 5th) at Isawad Cabunbata while the Bears are planning to go videoke on April 8th. My, my. My summer is getting pretty eventful by the minute. I'm all smiles.
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My dad finished the reconciliations with a little help from me. I'm officially on the gas station payroll and my dad wants me to audit it. I have no knowledge of Auditing yet but my dad's going to teach me. Hopefully, I'll get it.
Postcard grabbed from PostSecret.
{ book } The High King by Lloyd Alexander
{ mood } thankful
I haven't forgotten. They started it. It's undeniable that all this craze about asian pop culture rooted from their show, Meteor Garden. They are the first F4. Although I love the Japanese version of the story more, I just can't help but like the Taiwanese F4 better--let's face it, they look hotter. I really went crazy over them.
They're back!
Waiting For You
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Goodbye
{ mood } nostalgic
TV/Movies/Music | 2 hollered back
Life after college scared me a lot then. I remember talking to Kareen and Gen about finding a job and finally working (In another sense, apply what you've been trying to learn all this time in college!). But I've been through that phase and now that I finally can enjoy summer, I'm trying my best to put school aside (for now). Hell, I still worry about flunking every now and then. It's the bane of my existence. And until I graduate, it will continue to haunt me. But then again, it's summer. I can't wait to hit the airport.
Che wrote:
and its frightening. i know now that it is for certain that we fear what we do not know. i am afraid of what the future will bring. i am afraid of what tomorrow will give. i am afraid of the next hour, the next minute, the next second. it sounds all but cowardly but i believe that it is better to acknowledge your fears and face them head on than keeping them and letting them rot inside.
i will face my fears. the incoming school year will be something new. i will not give up. and if i do fail, if i do not find the next hour, the next minute to my favor, it will not daunt me. i will not doubt myself. it will not define me as a person. i may cry and be crushed. but i will rise and well, to hell with them!
Exactly, my thoughts, Che! Worry can get you nowhere. It's time for a break. God knows we deserve it.
{ mood } hopeful
Yesterday's reunion/outing went great! It was fun and we all had a blast.
Unfortunately, Tabulas hanged and all of the GMs (group messages) from my mates that I typed was lost except mine so I won't bother typing my GM anymore. All that matters is that the people who were meant to get those messages read them.
I'll post the pictures when I get to upload them, which means in a month or three. HAHA
I got to see and talk to Darrel again. Gawd! I missed him so much. And Pupung, too.
My high school friends--despite their highs and lows, admirable and discouraging characteristics--remain important to me. I'm glad that after three years of college and inconsistent and sometimes faulty communication, we're still together. They are a permanent fixture in my life. After all, I've been with some of them my whole life. You can't just throw that away.
I'm in a Cyndi Lauper mode this past week. Last night, this song played on the radio while I was feigning sleep. How fitting!
lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
and think of you
caught up in circles confusion--
is nothing new
flashback--warm nights--
almost left behind
suitcases of memories,
time after--
sometimes you picture me--
I'm walking too far ahead
you're calling to me, I can't hear
what you've said--
Then you say--go slow--
I fall behind--
the second hand unwinds
if you're lost you can look--and you will find me
time after time
if you fall I will catch you--I'll be waiting
time after time
after my picture fades and darkness has
turned to gray
watching through windows--you're wondering
if I'm OK
secrets stolen from deep inside
the drum beats out of time--
if you're lost...
you said go slow--
I fall behind
the second hand unwinds--
if you're lost...
...time after time
time after time
time after time
time after time
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When I got home at around 7PM, no one was there except Auntie Beng and Marlon. I took a bath (Pupung and Clariz pulled me in the pool!), got changed and watched TV (Project Runway was on ETC!) while eating dinner. After a while, I got hungry again and realized there was still some microwaveable popcorn in the drawer. My dad arrived while I was popping it. He asked me to prepare some juice and gave me a KitKat. We shared the popcorn and ate our snack while watching E! News. Yep, my dad watched E! News with me. After E! News, I changed the channel and my dad made me stop to this cockfighting show. I watched it with him since he was all goody-goody. I kind of appreciate cockfighting in a way. There's something graceful in a cockfight especially when you watch the slo-mos. I don't really mind the sight of blood. There's more disgusting stuff than that.
It was over-all, a very fine day! Thank God for everything!
{ mood } happy
Last April 6th in the evening, my high school friends and I met up again--this time at Darrel's. Sharmin was there! She has her summer free since she's a "regular" student at UPLB (She's taking Veterinary Medicine.) It was great. Reyner, Earl, Marion, Clariz, Jehza, Diding, Lea and Todd were also there.
While enjoying the banter, I realized one true thing--nothing has changed yet everything is different. We are all still the persons we were in high school but we also have grown differently in the past three years. I don't know how to feel about that. It's just discomforting in a way. Spending three years apart from them in a different school with different people--sure, it's great and I've learned and experienced a lot of things that are both enjoyable and beneficial to me but I can't help feel weird when I get a chance to be with them again. I love being with them but it's just that we're running in different circles now and I feel like I'm caught in the loop.
I just hope this feeling will indeed come to pass because it's ruining the moment. I just want to take every meeting, every occasion with them and enjoy it for what it is at that moment because who knows when we'll get a chance to be together and do those things again?!
I'm such a thinker! It sucks! I really should stop over-analyzing things.
While we were waiting for Earl to come back. Darrel, Todd, Clariz, Marion and I got to talk about school. Marion told us about his group of friends and how hard it was to adjust to them because they're so high society. I found it odd since we're both studying at Ateneo but my friends are not really like that. Sure, they know luxury and most of them can afford it but they're also down-to-earth, modest people. While he was relating it to us, I felt like he was talking about a different dimension. Simply put, there are cliques in Ateneo and I'm so glad I found a great one to be a part of.
{ mood } apathetic
Here are the pictures from the outing, my high school classmates and I had a week ago.
Jehza, Hazel, Darrel, ME, Genesis (back), Marion, Clariz and Pupung
Darrel, Elmer (seated); Dominic, Jehza, Hazel, Genesis, Earl, Garry and Sahlee
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Here are some of the pictures my stepbrother took of us at Isawad Balanban.
ME with Auntie Edna and Auntie Rhea
{ mood } blank
| What Lizette Ceniza Means |
 You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. |
{ mood } working
A few hours after our beach outing (today) at the White Beach in Malamawi Island, April Rose (Decapia) texted me my grade as it was posted on the CMA Bulletin Board. After receiving the news, I just played it cool although a million of things just rushed through my mind at the time--Ma'am Tan will still adjust it, right? Do I tell my dad now? What will I do next? I'm still hoping for the best so I'll contact Ma'am Tan tomorrow and confirm the grade first before I tell my dad. We're having a thunderstorm and how I wish lightning would just strike me. If April texted me earlier while we were still at the beach, I would've drowned myself.
I know I'm sounding like a broken record but I'm upset so let me vent and rant. I didn't really expect college to be a walk in the park but I also didn't expect it to be hellish as this. I'm running out of options and it's driving me mad. Why didn't I just take up Education? Its rewarding in every way and I wouldn't be so damn frustrated every finals! Why?! Because I want more. Because I believe I can do better, I deserve better. Because Accountancy is freaking IT. F*** F*** F*** Damn it! I feel such a loser. What is wrong with me?!
Boohoo! So much for the dramarama--the waiting ends and I'm left in shambles. Don't you wish you were still waiting instead?!
{ mood } anxious and depressed
I passed my horrible Financial Management class!
Life is so ludicrous and frustrating sometimes--the life of an Accounting student that is.
Oh, well--to other matters! I've been helping my dad with the financial statements. Filing income taxes gave me vertigo. No wonder people hate it and try as much to avoid it. It's not only about feeding a part of your income to hungry crocodiles, it's more about the effort it takes to feed them. Get my drift? Ha! Sometimes, I don't understand myself either.
I'm trying hard not to mope but I can't help it. Urgh!
They're adapting The Time Traveler's Wife into film with Rachel McAdams and Eric Bana as Claire and Henry. I loved the book--it dabbles into different genres without being overbearing and too much. I hope they'll make a good film out of it. They sure can, it is--I repeat--a very good book.
{ mood } dejected
TV/Movies/Music, ADZoo | 2 hollered back
I just wanted to share this video. It's a live performance by the Wonder Girls and Big Bang, two new artists from South Korea. Marion told me about them since he spends a lot of time online, now that they have internet connection at home.
Tell Me by Wonder Girls + Lies by Big Bang
I passed all my subjects! Yay!
You can't imagine how relieved I am when I saw my grades. Cost Accounting literally gave me a nightmare last night. It was very surreal. When I finally snapped out of it, I cried buckets. I was hugging my self and then my pillow so tight because it seemed like she was really there. I miss her so much especially in moments like that--when all you need is her hug and you know that everything will be fine because she loves you and that's all that matters. I will most definitely not forget last night. Maybe, it's because I ate too much and slept early, maybe because all I had in my head was the number, 83. I don't know but it was great because I wanted a hug so bad and she hugged me even though it was just in a dream. Maybe she was really there last night. Sounds creepy but every child who has lost a parent could understand me. The mourning never ends.
To you, thank you and I love you.
{ mood } indescribable
ADZoo, Ai-Love-Amor | say what?
I NEED and WANT to watch Across the Universe as soon as possible or I'll go nuts.
I really should've bought the DVD when I had the chance. Regrets! Regrets! <sob>
This makes me want to go to Zamboanga now so that I can get my hands on a copy.
I already texted my dad to buy me one since he's there pero I doubt if he'll do it. Argh!
I'm crossing my fingers. 
{ mood } uncomfortable
My dad asked to do the reconciliations for January-March 2008 but here I am playing solitaire and waiting for LimeWire to finish downloading Across the Universe. Dad texted me that no one in the 'store' knows what Across the Universe is and so he wasn't able to buy. It's so... argh!
The reconciliations can wait until next year. I, on the other hand, am about to burst. 
Marion and Earl are inviting me to go out--going out means beaches usually and I'm still holding it off since my dad might make me do something--run an errand or what have you.
It's only fifteen days until vacation. Lean and I can't hardly wait. He actually asked me to trade flights with him since my stepmom and I are leaving first, on May 1 and dad and him are following the next day. We just want to get out of here. Lean would rather stay if given the choice but I'm dying to travel.
It's a really good--no, great thing that I passed all my subjects last semester because how could I possibly enjoy traveling if I had to think of school and flunking?! Thank God!
Speaking of school, I've been missing on a lot of things by not being in Zamboanga. The Bears and I have been together and inseparable since June 2005. This is the first summer we have free and I'm not used to it yet. Che got sick with dengue and I wasn't able to visit. And other things I don't think I have the right to discuss here.
Tara texted me about documentation for the Ateneo Fiesta this year and I'm looking forward to it. It's good to be useful and helpful especially in times like that.
Next school year is suposed to be my last year in college but due to unfortunate circumstances I still have two years. I'm fine with it. I got over that fact a year ago. But the thing is, most of my friends are graduating next year and next school year will be our last year together as in school, hanging out and stuff. We have to make it the best year ever. It's a no brainer really. With them, only great things are possible.
{ mood } good
TV/Movies/Music, ADZoo, Ai-Love-Amor | 2 hollered back
There's an alumni homecoming going on in my high school but I'm not there.
I just don't feel like it. It feels weird and I'm uneasy about the whole thing.
I guess what I'm really trying to say is that I don't miss it.
I have realized that the important thing in life is the people who you're with and not the place and so...
there's no point in going back to Basilan National High School for a homecoming.
For starters, I wasn't really away. And unlike Marion, I'm not that bored yet. 
And BNHS is not my home anymore.
I'm not being ungrateful or anything, I'm just being me and that is how I feel about it.
I don't miss Basilan National High School! HA!
I've been with my high school friends and we enjoyed each others company already. For me, that's enough.
{ mood } apathetic
We went to White Beach last week and here are the photos I took. I wasn't able to get pictures of the beach because I forgot. I took these when we were about to go home.
It was nice to go back because it's been a very long time since I've been there. I really don't have to go far to get to a very nice white sandy beach. It only took us about 15-20 minutes.
It's one of the things I love about Basilan and one of the positive things people should know about the island.
{ mood } content
Fetish, Ai-Love-Amor | 2 hollered back
I just had a chat with Che about the movie, The King and the Clown. It's sort of like Farewell My Concubine--I'm not sure though since I only watched a few minutes of FMC and my stepmom lost the DVD. (Grrr...) I liked The King and the Clown because even though it tackles homosexuality, that is not what the viewer will remember about the film. I, for one, am touched by the friendship between the two clowns. The actors played their parts really well. Hands down, Lee Jun-Ki was great in this movie. And seeing him onscreen was... I don't know. What I can say is that although he was feminine and all, he made me lust over him. Yes, I said lust. I was like, I'm turning lesbian! HAHA But seriously this is indeed a very good film. Watch it!
A preview from YesAsia:
The surprise success story of 2005, King And The Clown shocked everyone by coming out of nowhere to become the highest grossing film of the year in Korea. The movie dominated at the 43rd Daejong Awards, picking up 10 awards including Best Film, Best Director, Best Script, Best Photography, Best Actor, and Best Supporting Actor. Gam Woo Sung was crowned Best Actor, while Lee Jun Gi, the androgyenous-looking lead who shot to stardom with this film, received the Best New Actor Award.
A modestly produced feature, with a cast featuring no A-list performers, the film is set during the reign of infamous king Yeon-San. Two performing clowns (Lee and Gam Woo Sung from Spider Forest) produce a satirical play, which criticizes the country's ruler. While this makes them highly popular amongst the common people, it gets them into a world of trouble with the authorities.
The two performers are arrested and accused of treason, a crime that carries the death penalty. The clowns then make a deal with the King (Jeong Jin Young - Hi, Dharma) - if they can make him laugh with their play-acting, he will spare them. They are successful, and become the official entertainers of the royal court. Things become more complicated, however, as the king shows increasing affection towards one of the clowns and they realize that their lives may have begun down an irreversible path. A thrilling drama exploring secret desire in the top echelons of power, King And The Clown is a taboo-breaking cinematic treat that tackles subject matter rarely seen in Korean Cinema.
These pictures made me salivate. Gee! Maybe I am lesbian. 
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PS: You've got to be kidding me!
He was so effective in his portrayal of the androgynous/effeminate clown that Kotex Pantyliners got him to be their spokesperson. Not only that, he was also featured in several commercials of estrogen supplements.
No kidding! Read more here.
{ show } Hana Kimi (Taiwan)
{ mood } impressed
If April 27th could be summed up in a Beatles song, it would have to be YESTERDAY, as in yesterday. It was an emotional rollercoaster ride and it made me a tad loopy for the rest of the afternoon. Here's what happened:
My stepmom called me aside after breakfast to discuss what we usually discuss--my father and his you-know-what. My stepmom finally decided to go to you-know-who's residence (which is actually owned by Aunt Jessica, my father's cousin and my stepmom's ally) to meet my half-siblings, Francine and Lester. She asked if I would like to come and I said yes.
Don't get us wrong. It's not to confront or hurt you-know-who. What good would that do anyone? For us, Aunt Edna and me, it's more about boosting our morale and dignity by asserting our place in this family and to put you-know-who in her proper place. I finally met my half-siblings officially. They're both cute. Lester is simply adorable and Francine kind of looked like me when I was at that age which scared me a little. I'm glad that I've put that meeting them part aside. I can now breath a bit easier, not that it's over. It's far from being over but you know, meeting them was a big step to finally get this whole deal over with.
It's hard when you're pushed into a situation you don't want. Since we can't do anything about it, all Aunt Edna and I want is some control over what happens next. I think it's about time we take control over it because it has gone too far. For my part, I need to stand up for myself and speak up on the situation that has been my entire life and the bane of my existence. When I think about it, if it weren't that I was raised in a conservative country, everything wouldn't bother me as much. (Forgive me, Pa, but I was raised in a country where adultery/concubinage is considered immoral.) Moreover, I live in a small rural city populated with religious gossipmongers and people who can't help but make other people's lives their own business.
We have to live with what we have but it doesn't mean we don't have a choice.
I just made mine.
{ mood } satisfied
I got to watch Across The Universe finally last Friday. The integration of Beatles songs with the story was imaginative and spectacular. Among the songs performed, I loved Jim Sturgess' rendition of the title track, Across The Universe. I never heard the song before and I liked it for its lyrics and melody.
Words are flying out like
Endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
Are drifting thorough my open mind
Possessing and caressing me
Jai guru deva om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Images of broken light which
Dance before me like a million eyes
That call me on and on across the universe
Thoughts meander like a
Restless wind inside a letter box
Rhey tumble blindly as
They make their way across the universe
Jai guru deva om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Sounds of laughter shades of life
Are ringing through my open ears
Exciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which
Shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on across the universe
Jai guru deva om
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Jai guru deva
Jai guru deva