Entries for June, 2008
I'm an incoming senior but I'm not graduating. Spending five or more (I hope not!) years in my course is sort of a norm in my school but I am not proud of being one of those students who didn't make it. This is not self pity, it is simply a hard fact I have to live with. Two more years, there's really nothing to lose. I get to spend another year learning more while my "supposed-to-be batchmates" head off and face their biggest feat yet--passing the board exams. While they battle out and struggle with the unknown, I'll be basking in the comforts (?) of familiarity.
I've always thought that my greatest weakness is school, not because I'm a poor student but because I put too much weight on it. It means so much to me. That's why when I get low grades or flunk a subject, I get that hollow feeling in my stomach and I get so depressed. But soon enough, you learn to let go. It's hard, especially for people like me who never flunked a subject in high school (<clears throat> modesty aside), the first time in college was a nightmare. I wanted to kill myself. But somehow, I'm glad that I finally experienced what's it like to get a low grade or flunk a subject. At least, I can already put that aside--call it a sad consolation on my part.
I'm not justifying my situation. Sure, it's my fault I don't get to graduate this school year but I also can't disregard mere circumstance or fate or what-have-you. Who knows what's in store for me in the coming years?!
Thanks to JJ for the following SMS: 
"If you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders."
With it, I've come to realize that I still have my dreams. It may not be in my arms' reach now but I want it so bad, I can taste it.
{ music } The Wonder Girls
{ book } The Book Thief by Markus Zusak
{ mood } chipper
There's something I wanted to post here but come to think of it, it's too trivial and lame so I won't post it... yet. Maybe I will but not now. I'm fickle, what more can I say?
Last June 3, I got to chat with Marion and Clariz. They came for a visit and we talked about, well, summer. Marion went to a Writer's Workshop (Read more about it here.) and I envy him. I miss writing with a purpose. I miss Campus Journalism and English. 
I already got consulted for the coming semester and I have 7 subjects with 3 units each, 21 units in all. I currently have a Last Warning Status for my scholarship but it doesn't bother me that much although I still have my heart set on keeping it. I am more bothered about passing all my subjects without a glitch. Cost Accounting last year was a very close call and I don't want to go through that again. I share 3 subjects with the Bears which I'm quite happy about. Fr. Yatco is returning to teach, not us though but I'm glad he's back. I can't say the same for the others though. 
I'm now using my dad's SE W800i. Happy me!!! I bought a headset (My dad lost it.) and a 2GB memory card. I was so furious when my iPod broke down but with the turn of events, I'm relieved and grateful.
{ music } Take A Bow - Rihanna
{ book } The Book Thief by Markus Zusak
{ mood } content
Rizal '05, ADZoo, Fetish | 3 hollered back
I received an e-mail from Mary Jane a week ago. I haven't seen her since our high school graduation. Can you believe that?! It was great to hear from her again after... almost 4 years. HAHA
Here's the transcript:
El0w salutat0rian!hehehe...quetal??Hmmm...graduating ya ta ah.K0sa mn,cum laude kta li??hehe...cge,ingat olweiz!G0d blesS.ü
> helo, mary jane!!!
> bien tarda ya gad kita nuay manmrahan.
> i'm sorry to dissapoint you. i'm not graduating this year. hopefully next year.
> which means wiz tamen me honors. hehehe
> bien dipisil gad el accountancy. grabe!!!
> ok lang man yo. at least, dire-direcho ya ara. haha
> ikaw, ketal ya man ka?
Hehehe...ancna??Why mn?Hev 2 bgsak?Nah,mn 4yrs y ta nway mn mrahan..Pr0 s0on,mn mrahan lng tmen ta se..hehe!Ok lng mn tmen yo,plak0 lng xmpre!hahaha...Buen0 y lng pla,nway me saka acc0untncy kundi cguraw gad n manada me bgsak...hehehe!Ok lng nway h0n0rs,manada y mn tmen k h0n0rs yn riciv during elem.&sec.educ.d2u...pra maiba nman ara!Cgur0 sawa y tmen 2 pirmi y lng tiene h0n0rs...hehe!Cge,g0d bless u olweiz..Alwayz pray...tc...ü
god bless din. thank you for the e-mail. 
TC xoxo
{ book } The Book Thief by Markus Zusak
{ mood } cheerful
If you haven't noticed, school just started. I'm well into the second week and it's the first time in almost 2 weeks that I got my hands on a computer. Since school just started, we get to use it for free. Joy! Haha
Anyway, I'm still confused with the new schedules. We now meet an hour-and-a-half for every class M-F so the schedules are scrambled. I only have one class every Friday and it's bothersome to travel from San Roque to La Purisima for just one class. Not to mention, the classroom assignments are topsy-turvy, too. Imagine going from NCB 4th floor to BC 4th floor in 5 minutes. It's crazy but what can we do?
I got a retake scare the day before yesterday. Good thing, I cleared it up with Ma'am Peña. 
We have a new Bessie, by the way. Only she's Pressy. I don't want to be mean but she's just too annoying to ignore anymore.
That's the start of the semester for you.
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Nota Bene:
My dad called and wanted to follow up on an architectural research he wants me to do. Grrr... He has a PC with unlimited internet connection and a laptop at his dispense and he wants me to do it because?!
{ music } Katy Perry Songs
{ book } The Book Thief by Markus Zusak
{ show } House, M.D. Season 1